#thingsmatter

Have you ever been in a situation when things are not going your way? When you feel like everyone in this world are against you? When you think a hundred times when and where did you go wrong? And when things are going worse, you think that even your mom thinks you are a failure?

I have thought of these things quite so long ago and I must admit until now, it comes through my mind. It hurts. It breaks my heart. I thought, what did I do wrong? And I just keep on holding on to one thing.. they said “when God doesn’t change the situation, maybe God wanted to change you.” I wonder what is it that I need to change. I wonder...

Life goes on, wether you understand it or not. Wether you are in a good shape or in a shape of losing. It’s a matter of how you look in life and who you hold on to. I pray that God gives me wisdom to fully understand this life. I am resentful in a wat that I do not understand. But what can I do? Think, do things on my own, is not even a solution. I hold on to you Lord.

To you mom..

I don’t know why I feel that you think I am a failure. Is it something to do with the past or something that you cannot tell me? I pray for a peace in your heart that one day, I will be able to understand. If I am a failure, I will get up. Gather myself together and think where did I go wrong. With the Lord’s help, I pray things will be in a smooth place. That things will fall in its right place in His time.