Sometimes I have these deep self realizations and I just sit there and wonder, if only I had known these things about myself or felt about myself earlier. I could’ve been better as a human being so much sooner in life. I almost want to apologize for who I used to be, but she got me here so do I really??
I am constantly growing. Yes I make mistakes but I am so much more forgiving of myself now. I understand I’m in this rebuilding phase of myself and I want my personal foundation to be solid. I think we all have the capacity to grow daily; to evolve with every dynamic moment.
To choose who we want to be and unabashedly embrace that life. God’s grace affords me that clarity and peace even in my darkest of times. I am able to accept and love myself because He thought it necessary for me to exist. I’ve seen some unfathomable beauty designed and produced by God. How could I , better yet why would I want to challenge Him? (👀 the sea and the wind, the sun and the moon, all of it adheres to His will.) I can surely fall in line, and in doing so find my own freedom.
God is so many things in so many different ways to every individual. No one person’s walk is going to be exactly like abother’s. But we can all appreciate where we were when we made that decision to let it all go and give everything to God. That journey I think starts at the same place of realization for all of us.
