#theshininggate

((PS. This is a AU where Loki is actually a patient in a sanatorium.))

It has started many years earlier, a boy brought to such a cold and…. Crazy place. Dark circles hung under his eyes, black hair lank against his ivory skin. The hospital was still young then, run by Frigga and her husband Odin. She held the six year old to her chest, rubbing his back as he clung to her. Unstable, doesn’t communicate, violent. Those were the words used by the staff of the orphanage, now laying, abandoned, less than a mile from his new home.

A few years later the doctor’s children arrived, doctors in their own rights. Loki clung to Frigga’s hip. Sucking on his thumb. He was still yet to talk more than “mother” to the head nurse. He was nearly at his tenth birthday. He’d taken to following Frigga every where he went, usually holding onto her skirt as they walked. No-one said anything to stop him. At least… Until Thor arrived.

“She isn’t your mother, you can’t keep trailing after her,” Thor growled lowly. He’d taken him from Frigga for a ‘session’. The blonde grabbed his lithe shoulders, holding him tightly as he sat him down into the patients chair. He just flinched, shaking as he looked up at Thor with great big green eyes. What was his brother doing. He couldn’t. He-

Thor’s cock pushed against his mouth, his hands coming to pry the raven’s mouth open, pushing his cock down His throat. The boy sobbed, the golden walls he saw flickered, turning grey briefly before it changed back again. He looked up to his brother, sobbing as his mouth and throat were abused. His Asgard. His Asgard was being tainted. He tried to bite down, finding it impossible with the hands holding him open. It took ten minutes before bitter cum flooded his mouth and throat, he coughed some dribbling onto his chin.

Thor gently wiped it from his chin, tucking himself back away. The boy was still crying as the tall blonde cleaned him up.

“You’re such a good little brother.”

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He was officially adopted into the Odinson family on his tenth birthday. He was given the name “Loki”. Loki still clung to his mother’s hip, following her from room to room. Three men had come in, claiming to be the warriors three, men that had seen a war too many and it had changed them too. Loki just Added them to Asgard, Thor being their leader. A woman entering months Later by the name of Sif, he wasn’t sure where to place her at first, if she would be one of mothers court. But her fighting spirit made her incompatible.

Baldur smiled at the little black haired boy, getting down on his knees in front of him. “Little brother, I brought you something for your birthday. I hope you like it,” he said softly. In Loki’s eyes his armour glittered, his golden brother on his knees in front of him. He took the packet in hand, slowly opening it. Inside sat a small stuffed Raven. Loki grinned, wrapping his arms around Baldur. The little raven in one hand, the other holding at his coat.

“Now what do you say, Loki?” Frigga said, smiling as she looked at the two of them. The little raven stepped back a bit, looking up at his brother, lips slightly parted.

“Thank you, Brother,” he said softly. Baldur’s smile beamed at him

..………

Loki had slowly started to talk more and more, now that Baldur had become his main doctor, he spoke more and more, getting more excited as he could talk to his brother about Asgard. Sometimes the other would play with him in the gardens, hoisting Loki onto his shoulders as they ran across the small garden Frigga had come to tend to. Loki giggled, holding his arms out as he held Ikol, the two of them flying on Baldur's shoulders.

His brother chuckled, gently hoisting Loki off his shoulders, laying him under the Apple tree at the center.

"Loki... I... I think I love you," He whispered, cupping the Raven's face. Loki giggled, leaning up slightly, wrapping his arms around Baldur to kiss him softly.

"I love you too, Baldur," He murmured, leaning up to kiss him softly. They were slow, tender. Loki held onto him, letting Baldur worship his body. They came together, Baldur deep inside of him. They lay, panting softly, rain had started to drizzle down on them, soft damp soaking through the elder's coat.

"I love you, you beautiful little man," Baldur whispered. "My little god of truth."

"BALDUR!" Thor roared, he was standing in the door way, furious look upon his face. "WHAT DO YOU THINK YOUR DOING?!"

Loki was held protectively behind his other brother. He was trembling, holding onto his coat. Baldur's damp coat was wrapped around him as he stood. Thor approaching rapidly before punching him across the Jaw. Loki whimpered, watching as his eldest brother wrapped something around him before pushing. Loki screamed when he heard a sickening crack.

..........

Loki fell deeper that day.

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Asgard was cold, the walls too bright. Thor dragged him to meet his friends on Midgard, Stark tower a massive monument to Anthony, a man that had more money than sense. Steve, A man that had slept for 70 years. Bruce, a scientist that had a massive green Secret. Natasha, a woman that cared, but didn't tell. She was engaged to a man named Wade. Loki had never had the chance to meet him, but he was romantic apparently. And Clint, the man that could hit a fly from fifty paces with his bow and arrows.

He shook as they eyed him, except for Natasha. Natasha was warm, and friendly from the get go. She liked him, Loki could tell. He would end up sharing his pudding with her at Lunch time. 

He met another Version of himself there, his name Loke. The looked the same, they thought the same. It wasn't until after he left with a woman named Sigyn that he realized that the other man never really loved him.

...........

"He's fallen deeper into this 'Asgard' place. We can't really talk to him about reality"

.........

Loki awoke with a start, Frigga holding him close to her chest. "Oh my love, I'm sorry, I'm so sorry," She whispered. "I never knew."

 Loki sobbed, holding onto her skirts as he nodded. "I Forgive you Momma, I forgive you!"

...........

"He's been crying in his sleep. I heard him screaming 'I forgive you Momma.'"

"He hasn't called me that in years."

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Weeks after Loke had left, Loki started throwing up every morning like clock work. the raven sobbing and holding his belly. He... He was alone. Alone on Midgard with a child that he didn't even know would come from the union with Loke.

Nine months, nine months and he was unhappy, lost without his shepard. He gave birth to a little girl named 'Astrid Eira Lokidottir'. He cooed at her, looking after her to the best of his abilities. 

...........

"Where did he get that?"

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Natasha had her first child with Wade a few weeks after him. Irina and Astrid became close, Loki becoming closer to Natasha at the same time. Every day they had tea and coffee while their children played. Natasha had moved in with him a few weeks before the Deceiver came.

Loki looked up at him, he was... so... frightening, and powerful. He protected Loki and his daughter from the other's. Always there when he needed him. Loki curled up on the elder's lap, holding onto Astrid as the elder rocked him, protecting him from Thor.

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"He doesn't talk to people, just to the air and that Doll. Ever since Natasha left to have her child he doesn't leave his room, claiming that she's there with him. It was such a tragedy when that poor nurse passed away. Some women just aren't cut out for child birth."

"Who is that deceiver he keeps talking about?"

ooc: Aww what have I done to deserve such loving words? I am not worthy!