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Sephora.ph went live some time last year and I can’t believe it took me a few months before I shopped there! I always visit the website but I just can’t decide which one to buy. When I registered on the website, I didn’t complete the beauty profile just yet which is probably why I had a hard time selecting products for myself. Yesterday, I decided to complete it and gave me recommendations that…

Hello hello! You gotta forgive me for being absent from the online world from quite some time but hey I am back and y’all gonna feel my presence a lot starting from today. For now, we’ll leave it at this very short blog post letting y’all know that I am ready to get back on track! Yassss! I missed this and I am so excited for the next few days! #changeiscoming — lol must use that hashtag! haha ♥,…

I cannot believe that we’re going through the same old shit on the same old season with the same old reasons. But here I am cryin’ the same old tears, feeling the same old pain for that same old person. It’s a never ending cycle and I guess this time I know, this has to stop. I am f*ckin’ tired. This  is a battle I have already lost. There’s no more reason to fight for it.

So while he’s delivering his so-called speech, I cut him off and ended things. I turned away and didn’t look back.

I would never dare to look back. Because the moment I turn my head and take a peek, it will pull me back. And all this will be for nothing. I know I will come running back to him.

There goes the silence and that sinking feeling when I finally feel that it’s for real. “Now what?” I ask myself a dozen times.

There goes the darkness. I feel my arms stretch out trying to find something I don’t even know.  I am blind.

But somehow I just have to learn to have a little faith in my self. I have to trust that I am capable of doing the right decisions and that I know this is best for me.

It ain’t easy. It never was. I could say that I’ve been here and I’ve done this before. I think that’s the right thing to say. The pain I feel though still feels new. How weird. You can go through things over and over again but still feel like it’s the first time.