#there are problems

Some of you ladies are writers. Some of you have keen editorial eyes! Some day i might call upon some of you to read an unfinished draft off a story and tell me what the problems are

Growing up right along with the internet has been an interesting experience because I feel like for more of my life the internet and then apps and such were more or less constantly getting better. Then we hit some kind of inflection point where instead of sites/apps improving user experience to increase their user base and profit, they started focusing on how to squeeze more and more money out of their users. Which meant instead of improvements we started getting more ads, more targeted ads, algorithms that users don’t like but are designed to promote sponsored posts, and even removing key features like search functions (Instagram I’m looking at you because wtf bro). They basically figured out that making things better wasn’t making them money anymore, so instead they continue to make things worse.

I keep wanting to make Vent Posts about my dietary restriction issues but the villain in my brain who wants me dead trots out the imaginary version of people I know who have similar food restrictions to judge and shame me for feeling as bad as I do about it (because "They all have to deal with it too so why should I get to act like it's some kind of ~special suffering~ and I should just shut up and get over it like everybody else does", a perfectly Reasonable and Logically Sound and not at all completely untrue and unfair argument that my friends who love and care about me would totally make and be right to do so) and so I delete it every time and it's getting to be Very Exhausting.

the lights on the ceiling are pulsing and they are surrounded by rainbows

Nobody is telling me how to deal with being abandoned by a friend. I tried talking to my therapist about it and she just sat there until I changed the subject. I'm so fed up.