I was hanging out with some friends today as we used to three years ago. We barely see each other, I guess it’s just life. One moment you were a student for idk how many years, spending a lot of time trying to finish all your homework and assignments (not to forget group discussions *screaming silently*), trying to keep up with deadlines (one time I encountered a poster on a door next to my lecturer’s office, “WARNING: DUE DATES ARE CLOSER THAN THEY APPEAR.” I remember chuckling upon seeing it for the first time, but not anymore).
And now you are about to graduate. Time surely waits for no one.
“So, what have you been doing lately?”
I was expecting this. This is the kind of question people ask me since I announced on social media (shouldn’t have done it) that I am graduating this year. It got on my nerves. To be honest, it still does.Â
Since then, I have been asking myself a zillion (is there such a word?) times the same question.Â
At times, I feel guilty of not wanting to polish my potentials back in uni days. And at times, I feel like the whole world isn’t being fair. That God isn’t being fair to me *cries*Â
Overthinking. That’s what it is. I was (still am though, but trying to lessen it a bit) overthinking about my future,
..when in fact there is One who knows what is best for me (even if it means I can’t have my dream job as a cat whisperer),
..when in fact there is One who controls and provides to whom He wills.
Someone got a decent job or self-employed? Has a nice car? Getting married to a good man/woman? Yes, hard work is in the formula, but do not ever forget that Allah is The Provider. He provides to whom He wills. And He knows best.
Fret not, dear self (and you who are willing to take time to read this). Believe in Him, only Him.
“Say, "Indeed, my Lord extends provision for whom He wills of His servants and restricts [it] for him. But whatever thing you spend [in His cause] - He will compensate it; and He is the best of providers."” (Saba’, ayah 39)
