#theoris

Hey, hey guys

I don't know how we became friends.

For a long time I hated you. I wanted you dead. The entire 2026 year was a nightmare.

We were trapped. We were lost. I tried, so hard, to feel again. To smile. To...I don't know. To stay alive.

I haven't been able to go into a cathedral, after that. Or a mosque. Or any type of religious building. You could say I have lost faith, if I ever had any.

Ironic. He was trying to create Faith in us, and i tried to kill myself, to seduce someone, something, to feel like a woman again. Who was I lying to, exactly ? Except myself, of course.

There is one thing that was not a lie.

My hatred.

I wanted to hurt you.

To kill you, even. I tried. I really thought I did. I almost died for it.

But then, you came back. You smiled like you always do and it was not unsefferable anymore. Even though the situation was dire, I was happy. To see you breathe. To see you live.

I think it was the exact moment I stopped hating you altogether.

Because I hated that you died.

And i loved that you lived.

Today, it's been four years since we moved in together.

The scars did not mend. For you, nor for me. Sometimes you see me crying in the kitchen and you come and hug me. Sometimes i stumble upon you, gazing in the distance, looking like you're not really there, and so I brew you a cup of tea and stay by your side.

We have two beds, but most of the time, being alone at night is too scary. Either I join you, or you come and snuggle with me. Most of the time the simple touch is enough. Sometimes a hug. Never more.

I miss his embrace and I never tell you.

You miss his embrace and think I never see you.

It's not easy to live for the dead. Even though we smiled for the camera.

Why am I crying ?

You asked me if I wanted to go on vacation with you.

I said yes.

We went to the beach for a few days.

You smiled. Started building a tiny fort, with wet sand.

And I smiled. Built the fort with you. We got into the sea. We bathed, we laughed.

And tonight, you held me tight.

So tight.

So warm.

I thought maybe....just maybe....

Maybe I could touch you in return.

...

You interrupted me.

Asked me if I really wanted that.

The dream shattered.

Saw this on the third video and thought I should share!

This is what it says:

“I just read a theory and it all makes so much damn sense now. The girls aren't real. They are representations of their pair, yoonkook, namtae, jihope, and Jin is alone-well the center of it all. 

Jungkook gets into the accident and Yoongi becomes the donor for him. In the run mv you see yoonkook fighting, well it's because Jungkook wants Yoongi to stop smoking. Remember how Yoongi got a call at the end of the second highlight reel? That was one of the boys calling him about Jungkook and he runs to the hospital, thus the scene of him running and getting angry in the third highlight reel. The girl with Yoongi (jungkook's representation) grabs onto him trying to stop him but he pushes her away which is why you see Yoongi in the same clothes when he's seated outside of the hospital. He dies during the donor process and Jungkook doesn't find out until afterwards when he's fully recovered, the scene of him walking down the steps holding baby breaths in his hands.

Namjoon's representation is the girl with Taehyung. Namjoon hid the fact from everyone that Taehyung's father killer is him, Taehyung who was saved by Namjoon goes to jail alone in order to protect Namjoon (the scene where tae surrenders), he wants to call Namjoon but he can't  pick up. The girl with Namjoon is a representation of Taehyung, who was his closest friend, but Namjoon can't face Taehyung ("always looking at your back because I know it's not the right time") because Namjoon isn't brave enough to face him. 

The girl with Hoseok and jimin is a representation of Jimin. "If you can shine I am alright" (Hoseok's quote) he is selfless and jimin is self-centered because he is mentally sick. Jimin is always focused on himself and feels like he is always lacking and never good enough. Jimin tries to kill himself in the third highlight reel where he and the girl (Jimin's representation) fall on the floor. Hoseok tries to save Jimin (the girl representing him) thus the scene of him running in the rain with the girl on his back. This is where we finally understand why Jimin is always associated with water, he died on Hoseok's back in the rain on the way to the hospital. The scene where you see Jimin with an umbrella and him turning away means he gave up completely on himself. 

Onto jin, who is the center of everything. Hasn't ever passed your mind why he never mentions the girls in his notes? It's always about the boys, proving the girls don't exist because they are all there for him. In the third highlight reel did you notice when Jin was changing clothes, he was in the same exact white shirt in I Need U? Well at the last scene he was wearing that white button up and the girl got hit, that was the moment when his entire world fell apart. 

In conclusion, Taehyung went to jail, Namjoon disappeared, jimin committed suicide, Hoseok later on does too with the pills, Yoongi does for Jungkook because he felt guilty, and while all of this was happening, Jin was watching his friends suffer. Which is why he wants to go back in time and be the best man he could ever be by saving them and helping them. 

This is the message BTS wanted to share with us. No matter what, you need to love yourself because not only does that save you, but it saves those around you as well. 

Hello friends. I got bored and a thought popped into my head. What if George Washington wasn’t real?