analyze disloyal order pls :)
Ahh this one is a big one... Very happy to analyze it though!! Lets dig into it!!!: (typical disclaimer: I try to not make my lyric analyses/interpretations too personal to the artist bc truly Idk what the fuck Pete was going thru when he wrote this, so I'm trying to look at it from a storytelling/theme perspective but with some songs, like this one, thatâs hard blah blah blah thank u <3):
So, just as a brief overview, this song is Very much summed up in the first line, âIâm coming apart at the seamsâ. Itâs a breakdown, written out and put to music. The degradation of the narrators life/mental state, in my view, at least. And also otherâs perception of things like a breakdown. As I said, the first lyric can sum up the entire song Pretty nicely, but lets explore that lyric itself a bit more: "I'm coming apart at the seams / Pitching myself for leads in other people's dreams", fob lyrics arenât often self-explanatory at all, and many in this song Arenât... However... I feel this one can be interpreted as pretty straightforward, no? The narrator feels like theyâre fall apart, their life is unraveling before them, and they just wish they could be somebody else, anybody else, at this point, as their own dreams and life are Not working out. (If you wanted to try and connect the dots to Peteâs life, well... This was supposedly written at a low point for fob and Pete himself... Life as he knew it was falling apart and he wanted to be someone else, perhaps...)Â
âDoc, there's a hole where something was / Doc, there's a hole where something wasâ, now, for this lyric Pete annotated on genius saying âI am forever having doctors analyze me for problems I do not haveâ which is... a Lot. And another direction I could go entirely for this analysis and this lyric specifically... Thereâs something to be said for doctorâs not listening to their patients, not believing them about what a Real problem might be, if you wanted to take this lyric literally with what Pete annotated in mind... which would tie into the theme of the song, falling apart, a breakdown... the doctor is trying to diagnose an illness or problem when itâs just... this personâs life falling apart. Dreams dying. However, that IS what I interpret this lyric as saying more than something super literal like doctorâs sucking at their jobs lmao. Thereâs something missing, this narratorâs dream(s) are Dying and theyâre breaking down about it and trying to Fix it... but thatâs not something a doctor can fix, is it?Â
âFell out of bed, butterfly bandage, but don't worry / You'll never remember, your head is far too blurryâ So! This is where the song Really starts to pick up, tempo wise and lyrics wise. âFell out bedâ, I feel, is not to be taken literally, more like... You had a bad start to a bad day, or are having a rough week/month/year, are damaged (emotionally) But! No big deal! Just solve it temporarily! Slap a butterfly bandage over it, something that is an impermanent fix to Much more (possibly) permeant problems. Supplement your emotional state with things that make you forget the pain, things that make your head blurry, and make you go Crazier in the end (alcohol... drugs... sex... nefarious things are implied)
âPut him in the back of a squad car, restrain that man / He needs his head put through a CAT scanâ is where the parts of perception come in more, though the âdoctorâ from the line before, of course, has Their own perception of the situation (breakdown), this lyric displays that even more. Pete, in the genius annotations, say this is based on a true story which is, again, a Lot to think about?? Pete :(?? Anyways! I believe this very much shows the way police officers will brush off people in times of crisis, mentally ill people specifically in this case, and treat them without care. They just perceive them as crazy, undeserving of respect... should just be restrained and thrown in the squad car in their time of need. Versus doctorâs viewing mentally ill people as people that just need to be analyzed and Studied to be taken care of... they just need to be ran through CAT scans and MRIâs and doctorâs NEED to figure out whatâs wrong, not Actually help the patient in need. So, our narrator, this person Obviously going through something Already with dead dreams and a blurry head is now getting bereted from Two sides: The police and doctorâs in the literal sense of the song, but there is Also this ugly dichotomy in society too.
âHey editor, I'm undeniable / Hey Doctor, I'm certifiableâ is another relatively straightforward line? I think? Itâs just saying, especially in respect to Fame (âcause Peteâs famous... and it is Very hard to ignore that in this lyric and song in general), that the narrator feels they deserve to be in the spotlight and Seen and Need that attention but also know that they are Not doing well. They are not in a good state and are certifiably mentally ill. But theyâre also craving attention. Attention to their mental illness, perhaps? Either in a truly attention-seeker way Or as more of a cry for help? Whoâs to say.
âOh, I'm a loose bolt of a complete machine / What a match, I'm half-doomed, and you're semi-sweetâ so... this is the lyric where the interesting dynamic of this song Possibly being a love song? Or... To someone, I suppose? As until this point it seems the narrator is only referring to themself but suddenly theyâre referencing another person. I donât quite feel thereâs enough substance to that to make the entire analysis around it, but it Is worth pointing out, that there could easily be someone beside the narrator this whole time, trying to keep them together, maybe? I digress.. anyways... The narrator shows once again that they feel theyâre falling apart, this time as a part of a machine... Perhaps that âmachineâ reference could be society (or a relationship đ), where they feel theyâre falling apart so much so that they donât feel a complete part of society anymore. They feel like theyâre just a loose bolt in society, trying to help everything run, and not doing a good job. The next lyric, Pete says in genius annotations is, âsometimes about a girlâ but âhonestly sometimes about Patrickâ which is just... yeah. He feels this person (a girl or Patrick) is a âmatchâ for him, though itâs almost said sarcastically? But just, like, the vibe I get from these lyrics together is that the narrator relies on this person, even if they feel they are not right for them and that they Arenât actually a perfect match.Â
âSo boycott love, detox just to retox / And I'd promise you anything for another shot at lifeâ now the relationship-related aspects of this song play into these lyrics a bit more, the narrator feels So wronged by love (and life too, I think) that they feel the need to write it off completely... even though they know theyâre just going to go back to it. Like a drug. And want another shot at it, love or life... the lyric says life, which I wholeheartedly feel matches the theme of the song More- Perhaps this lyric is aimed at the love interest, or the narrator, but either way? Another chance at living life and accomplishing dreams is Wanted, itâs Needed in this song sorely for the narrator specifically. Theyâre giving up on love, just to go back to it, and are desperate for another shot at everything. To try it all again and not feel like a failure, an outcast... a broken member of society.
âAnd perfect boys with their perfect lives / Nobody wants to hear you sing about tragedyâ this all just, like, perfectly sums up the themes of the song too, honestly. The narrator is clearly jealous of these people that they deem perfect, they want a shot at That life, a perfect one. But nobody wants to hear the narrators woes... because, perhaps, the narrator is seen as someone with a perfect life (if we brought Pete back into this... I very much feel that is true for him. Heâs rich and famous so shouldnât have any problems. No one wants to hear a rich person complain about life.) or the narrator just Feels like nobody cares. They perceive that no one is listening or wants to actually help them... as no one, up till now, has shown that they want to.Â
âLittle girl, got me staring odd / Or was that just a telescopic camera nodâ.... I am going to be completely honest... Not too sure what this means lmao. Iâve thought about it a lot! Itâs just... itâs not coming together for me in my mind? I feel this could Easily be about perception again, as telescopic camera lenses increase focal length even though the lens itself is shorter than the focal length? So perhaps the narrator is âstaring oddâ because his perception of life is off, because of what heâs going through.Â
âP-p-painted dolls in the highway, truck stop stalls / Lot lizards scales cool my nightlife moodsâ these lyrics are undeniably about prostitutes'/prostitution, to start off bluntly. The narrator is, well, seeking things to make them forget their problems, right? As I stated earlier, sex could easily be one of those things. Theyâre seeking a warm body to lay with thatâll ease the pain and damage done by a past lover and their life falling apart in general.
âAll the rookies, leave your badge and your gun on the desk / When you leave the roomâ like the telescopic camera nod lyric, this one is a Bit confounding, however... I feel it could just be referencing how the narrator feels untrusted. As the lyric, in a literal sense, is saying that a head officer(?) is requesting the rookies to leave their badge, a sign of status and honor, and gun, protection and another sign of status tbh, on the desk before leaving. They donât get to keep those things, as they likely arenât trusted with them. With our narrator, because of the state they are in, they donât seem to Feel like theyâre trusted. Theyâre falling apart, after all, a loose bolt in the machine that is society. They donât feel they deserve something to show status or honor, or at least, doesnât think that Society thinks they deserve this... even if They themselves feel differently (which, given the âeditor, Iâm certifiableâ line earlier? I feel the narrator Does believe they deserve trust and status and honor despite what theyâre going through.)
The rest of the song just repeats the chorus several times and reinforces what I said about those lyrics- Giving up on love just to go back to it, and feeling like they deserve another chance at hopes and dreams, in a different life. Overall, this song is just what I said it was in the beginning- the degradation of oneâs life put to music. It is insanely depressing, especially the longer you think about it all. The narrator feels like they arenât trusted, that no one is in their corner, theyâve been unlucky in love and life, and just want another chance. They just seem to want someone to care and listen to them and be a match to them. But they donât have that, or at least, they donât feel they have that. They just have people perceiving their life and situation incorrectly, while on the inside they feel like theyâre absolutely being torn apart.Â
















