Things were usually calm and there was no reason for hurry to show up on Haru’s routine, nor in his life. He could come and go and do as he wished, no rush and no worries at all. At least when he tried to make it like he had actually nothing to worry about. 

It wasn’t like he wanted to blame it on someone else since it had been because of his own negligence and lack of self care that this had happened, and still he couldn’t help associating this to that time of his life. That time when he left.

Weakness. Even when he had a lot physic activities, this stain wasn’t something easily erased. In fact, it couldn’t. Haru was sick, and this kind of sickness made it easier for any other to come. He knew it, but he still didn’t take care of it properly. Anemia. Auto-something-anemia. Something with blood. Tiredness. Short breaths...

He usually didn’t feel bad about it, he thought it was over once he managed to get back on his ideal weigh and resumed swimming, eating three times and that stuff he always heard... Still, not the good things, not the best routine. Anemia wasn’t the problem anymore, it was what it had let in along.

Until it couldn’t be ignored anymore. There were times he did felt tired, or like his head spun if he stood up too quickly, but as an athlete, a swimmer, he had never felt his breath was a problem... Haru just kept telling himself it was fine... Until he couldn’t hide it from the others.

He got out of the pool as usual, pushing himself up and standing on his feet. Too fast. His head felt lighter and lighter until he just fainted. Of course his club mates had to do something, try and wake him up, take him to the nurse since he wasn’t answering... He scared them, even when they all might want to know what happened, only the teacher in charge, the captain and manager could stay... 

When he woke up, half of his secret was out. The other half was still something he couldn’t understand how big and dangerous it was...

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Just like that, the Matsuoka siblings were orphaned.

Their mother had been sick for a while so it didn’t necessarily come as a surprise when her condition worsened. It was quickly after that she finally passed, and it all seemed to happen so fast. Rin barely had a chance to process what was going on before funeral arrangements were being made, and the news needed to be spread to everyone they knew.

When the reality finally managed to catch up to him, the feeling was painful. Memories of losing his father and grandmother came back to Rin, unable to figure out the correct way to cope. He wanted to hold himself back, but his emotions were too high, and his guilt was too strong.

Rin wasn’t especially close to his mother, and he felt that was all his fault. He left home at a young age, and only returned to the house for holidays and short breaks. He didn’t necessarily grow up with his mother, and now that there was no time left, Rin felt like he should’ve.

The funeral ended and the last of the guests returned home, and it was in Gou and Rin’s hands to clean up after the reception. Leftover food and flowers had to be taken home, as well as all the sympathy cards gathered. Rin was quiet for a good while as he worked, and it wasn’t until things were mostly completed that he finally glanced towards his sister.

“Gou...” Rin needed to clear his throat quickly after speaking, surprised at how raspy his voice came out. Crying didn’t do well for his vocal abilities, it seemed.

With the last cold he caught, he had no time to care about communicating at all, not to mention his usual relation with technology. Haru still had that habit of leaving his phone behind, practically lost for more than anyone else would do. He was looking for something else when he found his phone, by chance he taped the screen and saw the missing calls counter. After noticing most of them were form the same number, he finally called back.

The excessive amounts of snow that continued to pour down on the streets made it more and more difficult for him to drive. It was midnight on Christmas and Nagisa felt terrible he couldn’t be there with his girlfriend. He had no idea something like this would happen..The blond honked his horn irritated as a man up front didn’t seem to move..Such slow drivers.. He decided to text Gou telling her what was currently happening. 

“Yes, it is.” Rei nodded his head, smiling. 

Hearing those words the blond blinked rapidly and walked towards her, holding her hands tightly. Why would she think that? He always made sure he spent equal time with his friends and Gou. Maybe even more with her because she had mean’t the world to him. He didn’t want her to think differently or that something was up between him and Rei. For that reason, he was going to prove to her that there was nothing going on at all…Nothing…but..there was one thing that happened..