#thecatdraws

I was born as a lab experiment as a watcher, then turned human. That's why the watcher it's my strongest kintype, as it represents everything that I am. My body, my mind, my soul. It's simply who I am, and affects the way I see and interact with the world, and the way I think about humans and my thoughts in humanity. I feel my wings physically under my skin, I'm very observant and I love to stare and analyze. Because of this, I believe it's also connected somehow with my autism. This kintype is so strong it actually manifested as a headmate.

From my own understanding, the kintype that I've had experienced the longest (aside from the lab experiment) is my greyhound identity. Ever since I was a little kid, I was fascinated with dogs, not to any breed specifically, but I had an interest in dogs ever since I have memory. I had a dog encyclopedia I was obsessed with, I dressed up as a dog (with costumes) whenever I could, I had gear such as dog ears and a tail that I wore everywhere, I begged my parents for a dog since I was five years old... I also acted a lot like a dog, I had urges and instincts, the whole thing. Not that many phantom sensations, even now, but I'm undoubtedly a dog. The winged cat is connected to this kintype as well, because of similar behaviors and vision of humanity through the lens of a domestic animal.

Then there's the winged cat kintype, the first I discovered, but it's not my strongest kintype anymore. The winged cat is connected to the watcher kintype, as they both have wings, and they both have a connection to the moon as well, the night, the dark. The winged cat has magpie wings, as I also experience a strong connection with them. There's lots of magpies in the area where I live, and I've always been fond of them. I think this kintype stems from a very strong special interest in the book Warrior Cats as a child, around 13 y/o, that translated into developing a lot of cat behaviors and ultimately, in me just being a cat. It felt right.

The next identity I developed is the prey archetrope, even tho I only acknowledge its existence very recently. That's because at first I understood this identity as a kintype (deers and hares) rather than an archetrope. To be fair, I always thought I was some sorta prey, constantly feeling like one, and I didn't really know if it was a kintype or not because until then I only had hearttypes and kintypes. The prey archetrope is related to my own anxiety, directly intertwined with it. It's probably also realted to my self esteem issues and fear of being perceived. Now that I think about it, it's the most an identity has been tied to my own mental health. To be fair, it's in a bad way. But it feels right to call myself a prey archetrope.

The phantom hearttype, the moon hearttype, and the child of the moon archetrope identity are all connected together. That's because they are all connected with the night and, most importantly, with the moon. My connection with phantoms (the minecraft creatures, btw) it's related to my quote unquote hability to “sense” when others are tired. In my flat, I sometimes go at night to check on my flatmates because I can feel they're not sleeping. That, tied to my insomnia, the reason why phantoms are related to my identity in one way or another.

The moon hearttype and the child of the moon are basically the same identity, but explained differently. I'm not the moon as in, it's more of something more suble, I'm related to her (yes, her, personified), but I'm not her. It's “just a hearttype” but it's so important to me I could not get rid of this identity even if I tried. She's not me because I could never be her. She's much more than me, she's beautiful in ways I could never aspire to be (not in a romantic way, it just is, i don't really have the vocabulary to explain it). For me, the moon is super important to my identity and sense of being. It's so deep it is linked to all of my other kins in some way or another. Not only because I'm basically a nocturnal creature, but because the moon, to me, symbolizes protection and security. At night, I can't help to look up to the sky whenever I can't sleep (most nights because insomnia goes brrr) and just Watch her.

The only way I could explain this relationship, this connection, is through familiarity and familiar ties. She's like a mother, a guide, a protector. Therefore, I'm Her child.

Obviously, the watcher identity, the moonhearted and child of the moon are the ones that are the most linked to one another. I think I've never talked about the Watcher's religion and belief systems, because I'm not a religious person, but I should probably talk about this in a separate post.

Because the moonhearted identity and the child of the moon archetrope are basically the same, I could just fuse them and call it a day, but I can't. My connection and relationship with the moon are two separate things, and I can only explain it as two different labels/identities.

✧ OTHER STUFF ABOUT ME

I awakened on april from 2024, and I started this blog on september of the same year. (My pronouns (he/they/it) and identities).

I'm also plural (part of a system), so I will post about this from time to time.

✧ PLURALITY

I'm part of a mixed origin system, although we believe we're more stressgenic than anything else, as I don't consciously create headmates, they just appear. We don't really identify with any origin label tough, as we think it only creates division amongst the community. In total, there's twelve of us, in order of formation:

Charlie, or Moss, the host. Bodily 22 years old. He/they/it pronouns. Watcherkin (main form: Winged human, other known forms: barn owl), winged catkin, dog therian (greyhound), moonhearted and phantomhearted. Child of the moon, lab experiment and prey archetype. Aroace, genderfaun and nonbinary.

Orion, protector. A couple of thousand years old. It/he pronouns. Watcherkin and raptorkin. Aroace and agender. He won't post as regularly as I do, and we don't have a system to sign off our posts, so sometimes I'll be posting and sometimes he will post.

Theo, little. Around 7 or 9 years old. He doesn't really post here, as he doesn't like social media. He/him pronouns, a fox hybrid/kenomimi.

Clementine, positivity holder. 24 years old. She/her pronouns. Human and questioning horsehearted.

Leo, a Leonardo Hamato fictive from ROTTMNT, persecutor. 16 years old. He/it pronouns.

Nero, protector, dissociation holder and co-host. Shapeshifter, took a long while to form, as he was stuck trying to convey some sort of identity. Now he's pretty chill, handles stressful situations and dissociation. We don't really know their role, he's just there to block memories and emotions when needed. Voidkin, ageless. They/them pronouns.

Lana, social protector. She likes cheeseburgers, we think she's around 22-23 years old. Human, she/her pronouns.

Angel, an Angel Dust fictive, emotional protector. He's around 35 years old. Pretty chill, uses he/she pronouns but generally doesn't care a lot about gender.

Kinger, a Kinger fictive. Acts a lot like a dad. He's an old man, don't know exactly his age but maybe even older than Orion, he/him pronouns. Doesn't front often.

Vance, a Vox fictive. We don't know exactly his age (around his thirties), and he's pretty source separate. An anxious mess most of the time, age regresses pretty easily. He/him but doesn't care too much about gender.

Nico, a nonhuman headmate. He's a black fox, probably an adolescent or a child (acts 18 or younger). He/him pronouns. Doesn't talk much when fronting, even less not fronting.

Caine, a Caine fictive from TADC. He looks a lot like his source, and he's source-conected with Kinger, both from the same canon. He/him pronouns.

Rowan, nutritionist? I actually don't know if this role exists or not. They take care of food and cooking. They're also a caretaker. Similar in age of Orion and Kinger.

We're neurodivergent, with autism and ADHD, both diagnosed. Because of this, sometimes we might read the tone of a post wrong, and we may reply with tone tags.

✧ WHAT IS THIS BLOG FOR?

I will post mostly about my experiences as an alterhuman adult, such as little stories, and anecdotes. I will also post art and poems from time to time. I will also post about plural shenanigans.

I don't really have a DNI, just don't be an asshole. I'm pretty neutral on everything surrounding drama, but I have a general stance on being nice toward others and don't judge other's lives or business in general. When it comes to syscourse, I'm endo friendly as I'm part of a system myself (prob traumagenic or mixed origins), but I think the drama and in-fighting is pointless and in general rude. If someone tries to start drama in this blog, I block freely, as this blog is open to all kinds of plurals or systems.

As I stated before, we're nonhuman in every possible way, also called holothere. That means we're a physical, psychological, and spiritual nonhuman. I believe my body is the one of a Watcher, and my mind is the one of a dog and, my soul is the one of a winged cat. I'm not open to reality-checking, as this is my reality.

In general, discourse will not be tolerated in this blog.

✧ Tags I use:

#thecatchirps will be my talking tag (#thecatreplies for reblogs, #thecatanswers for asks, #watcher asks for all asks and #watcher flaps for everything)

#watcher writes will be my poems and essays tag

#thecatcollects is my tag for genders and sexuality

#thecatdraws is my art tag

#thecatmoodboards is my moodboard tag

#community archive is for my favorite posts

#watcher talks about lore for information on my canon as a watcher

✧ Reblog tags:

🐈◁ Cat purrs ▷🐈 → Catkin posts

🐕‍🦺◁ Dog barks ▷🐕‍🦺 → Dogkin posts

👁️◁ Watcher muses ▷👁️ → Watcherkin posts

🐇◁ Hare hops ▷🐇 → Harekin posts

🦌◁ Deer roams ▷🦌 → Deerkin posts

🦖◁ Dino chomps ▷🦖 →Dino posts

🐾◁ The Animal ▷🐾→ General therian experiences

🕯◁ The Archives ▷🕯 → Orion’s hearthome

🍃◁ The Community ▷🍃 → Aka everything not ours

🕹️◁ The Games ▷🕹️→ Tag games

🧪◁ The Lab ▷🧪 → Being a lab experiment

🪽◁ The Moss Grows ▷🪽 → Moss' posts

📕◁ Orion Archives ▷📕 → Orion's posts

🦊◁ Theo babbles ▷🦊→ Theo's posts

🍊◁ Clementine yaps ▷🍊→ Clementine's posts

🌑◁ Nero hums ▷🌑→ Nero's posts

🌸◁ Lana breathes ▷🌸→ Lana's posts

🐢◁ Leo is the coolest ▷🐢→ Leo's posts

💋◁ Angel sings ▷💋→ Angel's posts

👑◁ Kinger is here ▷👑 → Kinger's posts

📺◁ Vance is not Vox ▷📺→ Vox's posts

🍄◁ Nico is silly ▷🍄→ Nico's posts

🪄◁ Caine the ringmaster ▷🪄→ Caine's posts

🦌◁ Rowan states ▷🦌 → Rowan's posts

🩸◁ Simon is tired ▷🩸 → Simon's posts

🎲◁ The collective ▷🎲 → Plural posts

✧ Archive tags:

#alterhuman, #alterhumanity, #biologically nonhuman, #community discussion, #discrimination, #experiences, #fictionfolk, #fictionkin, #kff, #phantom shift, #physical shifting, #physical nonhumanity, #physically nonhuman, #physical otherkin, #physical shifter, #plural, #plurality, #psychology, #racism, #spirituality, #terms, #zine

✧ LIST OF MUTUALS MY BELOVED:

@beastlybardou, @incoherent-squawking, @i-miss-my-wings, @forrest-full-of-wolfs, @rareblackcat, @fables-kinblog, @d0gbite, @t1m3-d4gg3r, @wulfbones, @creatureheart, @sollareclipse, @scavengerflight, @silver-griffincat, @harpyrex, @klauwtje, @c4tch-th3se-p4ws, @coastalpawzzz, @thelonleycollective, @moss-ridden-owl-creature, @feathersamongthestars, @coolishbeansx3, @archivekin, @bardkin, @aphelion-alifer, @wildcatpaws, @werewulfborzoi, @untamedcrusader, @your-pants-glow, @alexplainlaterrrr, @fellow-queer-birdguy, @thecryptidcalls, @bubble--rings, @tiercelgreen, @terrasitic, @spud-sys, @skyhounds, @idioticaltxri, @internetcanine, @talankii, @the-winters-choir, @pigeon-in-space, @nyliumnetwork-archived, @mossysunny, @fae-of-the-pine, @blueboxofsnark, @wooffaire, @mamamarrs, @talon-dragonbeast, @peppoco, @foxie-system, @burntblackcat.