#theboynamedme

After giving it careful thought We’re not just right for each other And if it’s now you want to tell me how you feel Please don’t even bother.

I gave you my heart and my soul and my mind and my body, my whole I gave up my thoughts, my control In my head happiness was the goal Now I see where I stand where I erred Where I looked when I shouldn’t have cared How I told you all the things I feared and you took them and trapped me in bed I gave you myself, it was clear And you lied and you filled me with fear Confused me with words so unclear And stripped me and left me so bare Leavings the best choice I made I don’t care the price that’s been paid Now I sit in this same place I was played and I forgive myself for "whyever" stayed

You see, I'm scared of uncertainty. But you know what I'm really scared of? Certainty I'm scared of death, I'm scared of waking up every day to take a cold shower, I'm scared I love you, I want to always make you smile but I'm afraid someone else already holds that power I'm scared you already know what you want from me. I fear none of your answers are true because when push comes to shove, and you choose whom to love I won't be the person with you. Right now, I don't know where I stand and it's scary. It's scary to keep falling for you. To keep wearing this disguise, to keep believing these lies That someday I'll end up with you. At the end of the day, the story would be a well-written tragedy Written with blue ink in black lines, wrapped in glue. Now I'm at the end of all my thinking, How did I think I'd end up with someone like you?

I might be terrible but darling I'm not the worst and you might have dodged a bullet but see what it cost. Maybe there's another guy that'll give you all he could, but I don't think you know what you lost.

More blue days and more pale nights. I'm literally programmed to this life. I remember my mentor telling me, "Don't take this serious or you won't get a wife" I remember it well. Routined days are getting shorter. And I'm still riding with the universe Hoping it'll lead me somewhere Hoping it works out for the best. I don't know if it will. "How long can you keep on with this? You're building houses no one would habit. You're throwing a massive party and there's no one on the guest list. you cut off people really well. Welcome to the club. You're gonna be 60 with no friends in a retirement home. You're gonna be 75 with no one but your demons You're gonna be sad and alone" Yes, thank you, I already know I will.

I’m in love with this camera. new likes everyday, I’m a scam but I’m not hurting anybody, so leave me. I also don’t need to make anyone believe me. I’m just trying to be somebody, that’s somebody that’s anyone that’s not me.

Don't take yourself away, away from me Don't pull yourself away Don't leave me.

Don't let them mess with your head, Lade. For, in the end, you'll be at a loss. And if everyone is losing their heads, Lade, keep yours!