May 26
i think i need to log out
this is the only place anyone pays attention to me or talks to me and i need to leave if only just so. he probably hates me and wont read it anyway. i want to throw up and die. of course i didnt fucking believe he loved me are you fucking kidding me? why on fucking earth would i believe him when all he fucking DOES is run away from me????? all i ever wanted was him to be close to me and never fucking wanted to get near me. forgive me for somehow getting it in my head that i couldn’t believe him. oh, i dont know, maybe if he ever told me who he fucking was? if i ever could believe the name he gave me?
please come back i didnt mean it. crashed bus. engrave these words. and all i ever had were words
