#the second week

Jack is waking up. A new day is dawning. Now that he thinks about it - it had always been dark since he came here. Until now - now that the realisation hit him. It hurts so much. Jack: "Gods what have I done? How am I supposed to live with this guilt?"

Kesuke: "With what you know now, would you have done better?" Jack: "Of course!" Kesuke: "So why did you do the things you did?" Jack: "Because I didn't know better!" Kesuke: "Do you see why guilt is not bringing you anywhere? It just keeps you in your misery." Jack: "But what am I supposed to do now?" Kesuke: "You tell me."

Jack has no idea. The Wampa is starting to mouth and Jack tries to read from his lips. Jack: "Learn? ... Ah I learn something from it? And... batter? I make batter? Oh better! Yes... I'll do it better in the future!" Kesuke (looking at the Wampa): "That's my boy!" (TMI: That is one of the most important lessons I have learned in my whole long life.)

They went outside for the daily lightsaber training.

Jack: "What you said to me at the Jedi Temple. Now I understand." Kesuke: "What do you mean?" Jack: " 'Train yourself to let go of everything you fear to lose' . I will stay here and let them go. So I won't cause any more harm to them."

Kesuke: "About time! And now it's time we go to the party!"

Chapter 17 Chapter 18 The second week Spring At Belgraves and at Belgraves Institute Summer Solstice

Chapter 19 Chapter 20 Summer at Tartosa My Kingdom for a Horse!

Chapter 21 Chapter 22 Another Day in Paradise Putting the Boys back together & Disbandment of the Group

Chapters: 1-6 ~ 7-12 ~ 13-16 ~ 17-22 ~ 23-28

Movie and party were over. And Saiwa told Jack to clean up. Jack: "Me? Alone? Why?" Saiwa: "Because we were in charge to prepare everything while you slept! Kiyoshi will take you back to the Institute." (They are not allowed to leave the school grounds without Council's supervision...) Saiwa: "Noxee and Greg were supposed to accompany us... where are they?... (a few moments later) ... Really? ... In the Falcon?"

The others left and it was so awkward that Kiyoshi and Jack started to clean up instead of clearing things up... Eventually Kiyoshi made the first move. "I missed you so much. You can't leave me."

Jack: "How can you say that after I tried to kill you..." Kiyoshi: "You... WHAT?" Jack "What did you think I was doing?" Kiyoshi: "I..I thought you were too shy to ask for ... uhm ... 'physical intimacy' ... or that you like to... erm ... 'play rough'?"

Kiyoshi: "Jack, I can't tell you about the tasks I have to do for the Resistance or my diety. And we can't be seen together in front of the eyes of the Council. But I promise you: I will never do any harm to you and your friends. You should know that. We are fated mates after all!" Jack: "We.are.what?"

Kiyoshi: "What did you think we are?" Jack: "That I'm just there for a little fun beside your other lovers? I never understood what you could possibly want from me." Kiyoshi: "Gods, Jack..."

Kiyoshi: "There is no one but you. There never was - and there never will be."

To meet you again It’s not that I got scared

I cannot tell if this is love that is why I just hate it. I don’t want my heart get broken.

Movies Over - Block B (They will always be my favourite Kpop group <3 The one with the blonde hair (without glasses) is the real Ji Ho (Zico) ^^)

Outtakes

Many months have passed. One evening, Jack was going home from work, he saw a guy with a lightsaber. He didn't recognize him but suddenly he was overwhelmed with painful feelings. Guilt, loss, fear, sadness, anger. But as soon he turned around, he was happy again. And he forgot about him.

But he kept showing up, no matter where Jack went.

When they were visiting Owen's Farm and the guy was there again with his lightsaber, Jack asked Rubyn and Kesuke if they were seeing him too. But they just kept on walking... (Kesuke looked a bit worried, though).

And so Jack ignored him and was happy again.

Same at Mos Verdantis.

Jack won't allow this guy control over his feelings and let him taint his happiness.

But he was standing right in front of the Millenium Falcon! It was not so easy to turn away this time.

And between all the terrible feelings that hit him when he looked at that guy, Jack felt love. But it was still unbearable for Jack. And so he turned away, forgot and was happy again.

The guy was always there and for Jack's own good he started to just ignore him. No matter how hard this guy tried to get Jack's attention.

He just walked away.

Poor Vlad. That was the night when Vlad was sleeping beside Jack and tried to get through to him.

Outtakes

Vlad looks so lost in the first pic :,(

Theme: Star Wars Episode IV - Funeral Pyre For A Jedi

We redecorated the Entrance Hall/Staircase of the Boys Dorm at Belgraves Institute a bit.

It seems, when Sims Mobile was released years ago, we got the Family Portrait from Sims Mobile for Sims 4. In case you missed it (like me ^^') you can grab it on Sims 4 studio -> here (download and put the .package file in your mods folder)

You can change the poses and the clothes! Plus you can take a photo of the portrait. I plan to make couple portraits by putting each couple in a single household.

I found this on the Sims Forum. The post is -> here

Plus - it seems Greg has a new friend. They couldn't take their 6 eyes off each other after Greg took the photos hahaha

It is still the second night after Jack's breakdown. Dtui is calling Kiyoshi's mind to Tae Yang Monastery. Their retreat in the otherwold. They have to talk...

Dtui tells Kiyoshi what was really going on with Jack. That Jack wanted to kill Kiyoshi because he thought it was Kiyoshi who tortured them. And that Jack was about to endanger their mission and put Vlad's life (and the life of the others) in jeopardy by trying to kill their principal and her daughter. The council would wipe them from the planet if they laid their hands on humans...

Dtui: "I told you it would be hard. Give up on him. It's the best for all of you. Jack himself wouldn't forgive you if you put Vlad's life at stake because of him. The mission is your priority. As well as your duty to the Temple. You asked only one thing of him - to trust you. He never did."

Dtui: "He is so happy there and doesn't miss anything. He could leave if he wanted, but he didn't. He made his decision. Don't make it hard for him. Let go, Kiyoshi. It's the best for him, for the others - and for you. Right, Kesuke?" Kesuke did the only right thing ^^'

Kiyoshi and Dtui went over to the sanctuary to meditate and Kiyoshi dived in his memories with Jack.

So many of them are tainted. Now that Kiyoshi knows what was going on in Jacks mind. Jack never trusted him.

All the years he had spent studying to be a good Alpha for Jack - wasted. He didn't help Jack - he drove him deeper in his madness with his dominant behavior trying to be something he wasn't.

Kiyoshi was torn. Yes, he wanted Jack back so bad. But this was only for his own selfish needs. Jack is happier without him. He pushed Jack too far by thinking that if he only kept him on a short leash and lead him with a strong hand it would work out somehow. But Jack is not a dog - he is a wolf. A mad wolf that never can be tamed.

Kiyoshi said a last prayer at the shrine and left.

oh Kiyoshi :,(

S he's like the wind through my tree/S he rides the night next to me S he leads me through moonlight/Only to burn me with the sun S he's taken my heart/But s he doesn't know what s he's done

Just a fool to believe I have anything s he needs S he's like the wind

S he's Like The Wind - Patrick Swayze

A few days later - Kesuke and Jack are on their way to fetch some spare parts from Tatooine. (TMI: The background is a screenshot from my Star Wars - The Old Republic game ^^' I cut the SFS Lwaxana out and put it in front :) If you zoom in, you can even see Jack standing behind the window!

The Droid was playing 'Remember Me'... Jack should remember something - but what? He tried to get his thoughts together - but he's in a spaceship! And the song is so catchy!

Jack actually feels a slight pull when his friends are trying to get him out of the coma. But those were only small stings within milliseconds and he's always distracted shortly after… Why should he remember anything when he's so happy and carefree here?

oh Jack...

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