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Jack is waking up. A new day is dawning. Now that he thinks about it - it had always been dark since he came here. Until now - now that the realisation hit him. It hurts so much. Jack: "Gods what have I done? How am I supposed to live with this guilt?"

Kesuke: "With what you know now, would you have done better?" Jack: "Of course!" Kesuke: "So why did you do the things you did?" Jack: "Because I didn't know better!" Kesuke: "Do you see why guilt is not bringing you anywhere? It just keeps you in your misery." Jack: "But what am I supposed to do now?" Kesuke: "You tell me."

Jack has no idea. The Wampa is starting to mouth and Jack tries to read from his lips. Jack: "Learn? ... Ah I learn something from it? And... batter? I make batter? Oh better! Yes... I'll do it better in the future!" Kesuke (looking at the Wampa): "That's my boy!" (TMI: That is one of the most important lessons I have learned in my whole long life.)

They went outside for the daily lightsaber training.

Jack: "What you said to me at the Jedi Temple. Now I understand." Kesuke: "What do you mean?" Jack: " 'Train yourself to let go of everything you fear to lose' . I will stay here and let them go. So I won't cause any more harm to them."

Kesuke: "About time! And now it's time we go to the party!"

Many months have passed. One evening, Jack was going home from work, he saw a guy with a lightsaber. He didn't recognize him but suddenly he was overwhelmed with painful feelings. Guilt, loss, fear, sadness, anger. But as soon he turned around, he was happy again. And he forgot about him.

But he kept showing up, no matter where Jack went.

When they were visiting Owen's Farm and the guy was there again with his lightsaber, Jack asked Rubyn and Kesuke if they were seeing him too. But they just kept on walking... (Kesuke looked a bit worried, though).

And so Jack ignored him and was happy again.

Same at Mos Verdantis.

Jack won't allow this guy control over his feelings and let him taint his happiness.

But he was standing right in front of the Millenium Falcon! It was not so easy to turn away this time.

And between all the terrible feelings that hit him when he looked at that guy, Jack felt love. But it was still unbearable for Jack. And so he turned away, forgot and was happy again.

The guy was always there and for Jack's own good he started to just ignore him. No matter how hard this guy tried to get Jack's attention.

He just walked away.

Poor Vlad. That was the night when Vlad was sleeping beside Jack and tried to get through to him.

Outtakes

Vlad looks so lost in the first pic :,(

Theme: Star Wars Episode IV - Funeral Pyre For A Jedi

A few days later - Kesuke and Jack are on their way to fetch some spare parts from Tatooine. (TMI: The background is a screenshot from my Star Wars - The Old Republic game ^^' I cut the SFS Lwaxana out and put it in front :) If you zoom in, you can even see Jack standing behind the window!

The Droid was playing 'Remember Me'... Jack should remember something - but what? He tried to get his thoughts together - but he's in a spaceship! And the song is so catchy!

Jack actually feels a slight pull when his friends are trying to get him out of the coma. But those were only small stings within milliseconds and he's always distracted shortly after… Why should he remember anything when he's so happy and carefree here?

oh Jack...

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We all know that - the alarm goes off and we think 'only 5 minutes more...' and 5 minutes later the alarm kicks us out of a long and eventful dream. All this could have never happened in only 5 minutes, right? This is possible because time moves different in dreams. Or when you enter otherworld for example (source: wikipedia) quote: 'Sometimes the hero returns after what he believes is a short time, only to find that all his companions are dead and he has actually been away for hundreds of years.' There even was a Star Trek episode where the time on a planet moved faster than on the Voyager.

So Dtui left collapsed Jack only a few minutes ago - but in Jack's 'Star Wars Realm' already a few days have passed... Kesuke and him had been repairing space ships and now they spend their evening at the cantina. Jack couldn't be happier. Like in a dream or in his 'Armadillo World' he doesn't question anything. (This is actually a good technique to step into a lucid dream. Starting to question things in real life so you remember to do it in your dreams to find sth odd to notice it's a dream - and then try to act.)

Kesuke doesn't look happy - he seems to lose this Sabacc game against the 'Wampa'...

When Dtui/Hell-ena (the Demon-Chicken-Twi'lek shifter...) sensed that Jack fell into coma, she 'kicked' him to Kesuke. She knew Jack wouldn't find it suspicious and would be distracted because -> Star Wars... (Is this Kesuke's 'Armadillo World'?) Kesuke: "What have you done? We don't interfere!" Dtui: "The mission is at stake - and Vlad's life. And Jack was about to kill his principal and her daughter! Kiyoshi already sacrificed enough for them - and him." Kesuke: "You are biased. And you are disturbing the structure of space and time..."

Dtui: "He is happy here and he has no intentions to go back. He could leave by his own if he wanted to." Kesuke sighs.

Jack was happily exploring the areal. (He really was so so happy all the time ^^')

And then Kesuke found him. Kesuke: "Hey you"!

Kesuke asked Jack over to help him with that generator. Kesuke: "My back, you know..." Jack: "Uhm - a short question. Am I dead?" Kesuke: "Don't worry." Jack: "That's a relief!"

Kesuke: "What?" Jack: "That I'm not dead!" Kesuke: "I didn't say that. You need to listen. I just said: Don't worry. Worrying is a waste of time. Don't stress over things you can't control." Jack: "Oh... ok."

Puppy Jack is easily to distract - oh my... show him a spaceship and he forgets everything.

Login Madness

I didn't even know Kesuke has a career? Sports makes sense, so I must have forgotten about it ^^' And what is Rubyn wearing? This outfit isn't even showing up in her outfit list! Plus - she already has a proper cold weather outfit. Why is the game doing this?

Plus - I wish we had a command where we could keep the speech/thought bubbles and hide the plumbob and the group headline effects... And that the speech bubbles would stay visible when we hit TAB. [There is possibly a mod for this but I don't play with mods :]

Maybe you noticed Barfolomew in the background? As a huge Star Wars fan he was right there visiting when I logged in hahaha

After his mental breakdown, Jack found himself in a snowy landscape. In his 'Four Horsemen'/Jedi Cosplay...

Is he dead?

As always, he uses his puppy strategy to calm himself down.

(TMI: 'The world is a mountain Whatever you say, good or bad, it will echo it back to you Don’t say I sang nicely and mountain echoed an ugly voice… That is not possible' by Rumi)

And then Jack heard the music.

'When I die and they lay me to rest Gonna go to the place that's the best When I lay me down to die Goin' up to the spirit in the sky' When he turned around, he saw a kind of landing place with space ships and it looked like on Hoth, the ice planet from Star Wars.

He seems all alone here. And he has no internet. Yes, he was definitely dead. There was no other explanation. But it could have been worse. I mean, Star Wars! This was heaven! Even though he expected 'Highway To Hell' and not 'Spirit In The Sky' as background music...

Kesuke to the Party Droid: "Hey, why did you stop? I like that song!" *Droid beeping* Kesuke: "We have a visitor?"