#the hell system

Basic info

name(s): Osyth nickname(s): pretty deer lady, deer lady age: 23+ (ageless) gender: intersex, bigender pronouns: she/he species: vampire, faun, harpy sexuality: panromantic, poly source: brainmade

Sys info

role(s): Host, Impeter (A persecutor), hypersexual holder proxy/sign off: Osyth: - Osyth subsystems: none

Relationship Info

relationship status: taken partners:

Sylvie!1 (heaven sys)

Adamr!1 (heaven sys)

Sylvie!3 (heaven sys)

Lorraine!1 (heaven sys)

Rowena!2 (heaven sys)

Bela (heaven sys)

Cassandra (heaven sys)

Daniela (heaven sys)

Jack!6 (heaven sys)

Open + Poly + Looking

Likes

Marvel

Billie Eilish

Calling with my partners

Going on walks

watching movies and shows

Doctor who

music

gaming

supernatural

writing and creating stoies

animals

cats

Userbox!

Other!

Why are you all back? This is weird.

God forbid our main protector goes on a break and then all hell breaks loose.

How does he cope?

Basic Info

name(s): Simm nickname(s): Puppy, Pup age: 900+ gender: Pupgender pronouns: Pup/He species: Golden-Retriever/Time-lord sexuality: Gay/Poly source: Doctor Who

Sys Info

role(s): Host/Symptom-Holder proxy/sign off: ~ or - Simm subsystems: The Puppy System (@thepuppysys )

Rel Info

relationship status: Taken partners:

10th!1 (In sys)

10th!1 (Heaven sys)

10th!6 (Heaven sys)

Kilgrave!1 (Heaven sys)

SamW!1 (Heaven sys)

AdamR!1 (Heaven sys)

Open + Poly + Looking

Likes:

Doctor Who

Squeaky toys

My boyfriends

The Band Ghost

The 10th Doctor

David Tennant

Sir mix a lot

Being a silly goober

My besties in the bigger on the inside discord server!! (I LOVE YOU ALL GUYS /p)

Userbox!

Other!

- Totally not Adam

Adammmm….

so I got pulled out of dormancy, and I don’t think I should’ve been pulled out of dormancy. There isn’t a purpose for me here anymore, I was once a caretaker in the system but now someone else has taken my place in the system.

Additionally me and my ex-partner broke up in April, their system blocked us due to personal reasons but there was no official break up it just happened.

Now me and that ex didn’t leave on bad terms, and we are in a mutual server where our system is quite active in, they’re semi active in that server which we don’t mind.

However I’ve been chatting in that server today and they act the same way they did when I was dating one of their alters and it just makes me think about all of the good stuff.

I miss them, I hate how everything in our system has changed in the last few months. I feel as if there is no purpose for me anymore and that I’ll be better off gone. All I want is to feel like I belong but I don’t. I feel bad for our current partner because I’m still sad about it and our system is acting like my issue isn’t a big deal at all.

I can’t help but think my system sees me as some kind of burden.

I want to go home. I want to be worth something. To be loved.