#thcc

Anyway, I cosplayed as Stuttgart!Loki.  This is the same costume I wore last year to NYCC and I hadn't planned on repeating it but then TH was announced as a guest and I figured I might as well. I was really nervous about dressing up in front of him for some reason even though I'm sure he's seen 324234 Lokis and had even 23434 more weird interactions with people but I was freaking out.  I did it anyway because I knew I'd regret it if I didn't.

I always get super pleased when people ask for my picture or tell me they like my costume and one guy was like "Brilliant. That is -badass-" and I was like :D so I'm glad I dressed up.  Also I guess the Con does all their press on Thursday,  because some lady came up to me and said she worked for ABC News and they were doing  a piece on Stan Lee and would I want to talk on camera.  I declined, because all I know about Stan Lee is he is old and dead, so.

Anyway my photo op was as soon as the con opened, and I got in pretty fast. First impression was Tom Hiddleston was very tall and thin and I guess I was too busy thinking about his body when I walked up to him and said "hi!" because he immediately said "Going old school. Avengers Loki. Nice." and I was like *weird noise* because I was still thinking about his legs or some shit and I didn't know what he was talking about for a fraction of a second. Then I got it and was pleased because I was terrified he had forgotten that Loki costume.

I didn't want to smile because I wanted to be more in character and also because I look stupid when I smile but Tom Hiddleston was touching me and I was touching his famous blue sweater and I couldn't help myself.  After the photo was done and the photo people were all "next" and moving the next person in, Tom turned to me when I was walking away, like leaned around me to LOOK DIRECTLY INTO MY EYES and tells me "You look fantastic. Really great."   That right there murdered me. Like if that was all I had done today that would have been FINE.

But I had the autograph a little later, and I brought my mini Only Lovers Left Alive poster that I bought specifically for him to sign if I met him.  In line, I learned you could get multiple items signed, and I didn't have anything else, so I opted for my phone case. I did this with Bruce Campbell at a book signing because I didn't have anything else and it was cool, just. Having his autograph on my phone.

Last week I told myself I'd say something more than "hi" because I'd hate myself if I didn't.  But I never know what to say to anyone because I'm awkward, so I spent 45 minutes last week coming up with something.  I wanted it to be like...like I wanted him to know he's important to me without sounding like a lunatic.  Because just like, his existence has helped me with some bad shit the past year and a half because he always makes me happy whether he’s doing some dumbass vitamins commercial or making new content.  His play spurred me to check out how much it'd cost to go to London and like I never would have considered that as an option for something for me to do, but through a combination of factors at that point in my life I was like. YEAH LET'S DO THIS LET'S GO TO LONDON and I wouldn't have had that life experience if it wasn't for him.

So I had my shit rehearsed and of course I forgot part of it, but. Anyway, I got up to the autographing table and I said hi again and he said something generic, and I was like @myself it's now or never bitch so the gist was basically "I don't know how to articulate this well - " and then he looked up at me and I was like *no please don't if I look at your face you will undo me*.  Got my shit together and continued. "But I'd like to thank you.  You're very talented and you exude such a kind aura -" and he interrupted to say thank you and I'm like *shut up, please, my brain is the size of walnut I can't remember this if you keep looking at me.*  So I stalled for a second and then "- and because of that it's been so easy for you to be a bright spot in my life when things get hard, so thank you for that" And then he put his hand on his chest and said something about being very grateful at the same time I was telling him I was grateful and there was just some overlapping THANK YOU I APPRECIATE ITS.  And then I felt like I was gonna die because I actually accomplished what I wanted to.    Then I almost left before shaking his hand but the other thing I promised myself I would do was TOUCH THOSE GIANT HANDS and I was like *squeaks* "Can I - " while holding my hand out and he smiled or whatever I can't remember because I was blacking out and then I came to again because this is when he winked at me.

And it's not like I could have mistaken this for something else, like he got something in his eye, because Tom Hiddleston does -not- know how to wink so when he does he uses his entire face and half his body to do it and I'm not sure WHY HE DID but I really don't CARE only that he FULLY and 100%  MURDERED ME in that instant.

And then as I was walking away he called after me and said "Thank you so much for what you said" and I feel like I didn't acknowledge him because I don't remember what I did, only that I was in a daze trying to text while I was like OMG WHERE'S MY PHONE...........oh I'm holding it.

Now my phone looks terrible because I put tape over his autograph so it doesn't fade away but that's fine. It's there.

Anyway I had to go sit down on the floor after that because my legs were getting a little weak lmao.

I was a little afraid he would not be as nice as  people say - I didn't think he'd be rude, from everything I've heard about him he's not - but he could've just been having a bad day or whatever.  But he's just as sweet, if not sweeter than I expected.  Actually, definitely sweeter.  I've met a lot of celebrities and this is by far the best interaction I've had with one, just in terms of responsiveness and how much -I- said, because I usually just say "hi" and that's that on that.  And that fact that my best experience is with Tom Hiddleston aka the only person besides Gillian Anderson I've loved this much is amazing.

I kind of like, don't ever want to meet him again because everything went perfect and I'd like to keep it that way.  I know my impulsive ass tho, if I had the opportunity again I'd be like *catapults*

And then it took me 2343243222 hours to get home because my stupid ass couldn't find the parking garage I parked in, then Google Maps kept telling me to do shit that wasn't possible, THEN I sat in traffic for 90 years trying to get into the Lincoln Tunnel only to learn when I got to the front of the line that I could only go left so I had to loop around and sit in the same damn traffic for another 90 years.