#tetralea

I'm a mom, I'm 32, I have a 1,5 years old, who I loooooove more than anything in this word. I never in my life wanted children or wasn't sure if I wanted them and till this day sometimes I break down and hate myself for changing my mind and wish I didn't. Other days I'm overjoyed and can't imagine never experiencing this. BUT! Two of my best friends are childfree and fully intend stay that way and I never understood the people who attacked them because of that or told them they'd change their minds. Ever since having a kid of my own I am supporting people even more who make the conscious decision not to have them. Not everyone needs to want kids and spending 2-3 hours with someone's kid (which is a curated time, carefully planned around their naps and snacks to have the happiest versions of those kids) then changing your mind would be the worst idea ever. I'm so in support of people who want to be childfree, while having a child of my own, and the longer I have her the more I can support those people, because whatever the fuck parenthood is, "hard" or "difficult" doesn't describe it at all, not even close and the sacrifices it requires. If someone doesn't want these? Great, good for them, sleep instead of me too please.

Saying "You'll change your mind." sounds like when I have a horror day and wish everyone else to suffer too because I can't reach my therapist lol

And also if anyone does change their minds, great, just make sure you are doing it for the right reasons because this shit is mind, body and life altering for forever.

Hi lovely!

Thank you so, so much for sharing your thoughts on this discussion as a mom. This insight is incredible, and the way you've worded this entire ask is an absolute work of art.

i’m sorry you feel that way :(

but i understand that! it happens. and i feel like if i wasn’t on tumblr i probably would’ve lost interest in him a long time ago. maybe i wouldn’t even have gotten that deep into it tbh.

but that’s totally valid! and as i’ve mentioned before what i’d miss most is interacting with the people on here! it’s not even that much about tom anymore.

and maybe 2022 will be a little better. and again, i don’t blame him for not posting much besides marketing. he doesn’t owe us anything and i can’t even keep up with my own instagram. like the last time i posted was over two years ago lmao. now imagine having almost 50m followers.

P.S. love all of your Haz stories 😍 (haven’t read the Tom ones yet)

Heeey! This is a really good question which I am more than happy to answer, darling 😘

Yes, I have been to subspace! Honestly, it was a lot of fun and it was very exhilarating to be able to let go and be overstimulated until im braindead 😂

i really should've written something down bc i don't remember much rn. but i do remember just switching between edging and overstimming back and forth and at one point i just.. gave into the sensation, idk if that makes any sense lollll

that being said, it took a lot of energy and at the end of it, i was just knocked out. the subdrop is Real, y'all, and it's no joke. i had to get up early the next morning, so i was cranky and needy and whiny (and im a big girl, i don't turn whiny on NOBODY) and i was just tired and iffy the whole day until my bf came home and gave me a lot of extra aftercare (even after all the aftercare the night before)

so yeah, such is my experience with subspace. I've never got anyone in there bc my bf is a total dom and covid stops me from seeing other ppl 😂 sorry it turned into a long rant hahah

Ohh I’m here for neighbor!Tom being a top tier tease. Maybe your balcony’s face each other and you like to have coffee out there in the morning before work and he used to just work out in his living room but then he catches sight of you the third morning after he’s moved in and he’s like 👀

So he starts stretching out there, being obviously loud about it and as soon as you look his way for the first time he locks your gaze, stopping mind stretch to wave and move over to his railing so he’s as close to you as he could be “Morning, love,” he calls out. You roll your eyes, typical flirt that you would usually want nothing to do with. So you raise your mug to him and smile before stepping back inside.

And so that becomes routine, he greets you every morning with a pet name, sometimes he asks for your name, or how your morning is going, but you smile, raise your coffee to him and simply step back in to your apartment.

Then one Sunday morning, you step onto your balcony and as soon as you do, a resistance band comes sailing over and lands close to your feet. You press your lips together and look up to see Tom quickly hiding a smile.

“Sorry!” He shouts, “got away from me!”

You roll your eyes knowing it’s no coincidence that this happened as soon as you stepped outside. But it’s hard to squish the butterflies in your stomach. You launch it back over to his balcony, laughing as he dramatically catches it.

“I’m in your debt! I could make you a proper cup of English tea to repay you.” He says, gesturing to your coffee mug.

“I only drink coffee.” You say, smirking as you lean against your railing. He mirrors your movements, leaning against his own railing and meeting your gaze.

“Alright, a cup of coffee then. I should probably buy it for you, I’m shite at making it.”

“Alright neighbor,” you say, emptying out your drink into the grass below, “meet me downstairs in 10.”

“Tom!” He shouts back, “my name is Tom.”

You smile as you go to step back in your apartment but hesitant for a moment, turning back towards him and he’s still watching you. You shout your name out to him and he beams.

You can find all my works on the links below for:

HRPF - Willmack

Bleach

F1 Lestappen

Tom Holland 

Harrison Osterfield

Sebastian Stan

Bucky Barnes

Stucky

Chris Beck

Find me on Ao3!

Also I just got super soft for my boy who just got home from a hockey game. (Thank god now he is a referee and not playing, so I’m not worried sick if they gonna smash him or not. 😭)

👀👀