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Supposing such at thing to be true, Neji had wondered much of his past he had liked to be part of him. Because of what had been going on in his family, he had forgotten to be kind. That had made him into quite a cruel person for a time. A person he really wasn't on the inside. But the anger and pain had easily gotten to him without his mother or father there, for him. He had no siblings, and until graduating, no true friends. Just people talking about his being a genius. That didn't make ones childhood any better. Staring at Tenten, he blinked and listen to what she had to say. Then turned his gaze away, nodding once " I have done some terrible things, in my past. Things that need to be made up for." However, each time he had tried to do something for Hinata. His mind would come up with another excuse for why he shouldn't.
He had loved Hinata, he always had. That, he knew, was one part of why he had been so angry toward her. Even if she had never done anything to him. She stood for everything that had been done to him. She had become the epicenter for all his suffering. But he now knew that his anger was misdirected. Her ignorance was not her fault, but Hiashi's and the Elder Hyuga's. It was them, who had deserved his ire. Narrowing his eyes a little bit, he went back to staring off as his thoughts continued to swirl with things that had happened so long ago now. When Tenten had finish what she was saying next, he held his arms straight down his sides, his fingers toying with the insides of his shirt sleeves, absently, for a moment " Even now that I have Team Gai, and am no longer lonely. There's just some loneliness that presence cannot fill. The presence of a parent, that will never be there."
Neji gave a faint, solemn grin at this " But still, the presence of a friend, can make all the difference. Can't it?" Neji questioned staring up toward the sky through the tree's. Yes, he may not have been able to fill that void the loss of his parents left behind. But he now had friends, he wondered if his father was proud of him. Maybe his mother was glad her son wouldn't be so alone anymore, from now on. But that was also something he would always wonder, what would the think of him. What stories did they still have to share with them. What were they like as children. How different would his life had been from the one he had now, if they had still been around. It was harder, when Neji had grown up being Hinata's measuring stick for her father to grade her ability with. Neji let out a small huff.
Listening, his ears twitched slightly as he hears here toss the kunai, his head turning after it for a moment before he is looking toward Tenten once agian. He had always enjoyed Tenten's companionship the most. Probably because she was a lot more tame, like him, than the other two had been. There was only so much he could handle of the other two all at once, when they were having one of their more spazzy, high energy days. Thankfully, today it seemed that the two other Team Gai members had vaporized into the either, and given him and Tenten the day off. Neji had to assume they were bound to show up any moment however "Yes. Sadly, this sadness isn't something that is one that could easily be mended, no matter how much, you, or I, or anyone else attempted." The only thing that could heal it, was long gone and buried by this time.
It was a shame, he was looked up to. Yet, he found himself often thinking about such terribly sad things. He spent far too much time focusing on being better than any other Hyuga, to prove that a branch member was and could be better than a main house member. But outside of his own family, people looking up to him had never been something he thought about. He already had known he was better than the people outside of his own family. Shifting finally, he moved closer to the other, sitting down beside her in a lotus style. Bringing his arms up to cross under his chest he offered a faint smile toward her "Yes, I know." He had always found spending time with her and just sitting quietly, or talking could often turn his worst days into far better ones at the end, than they were in the beginning. Quietly he sat on the grass, staring up at the sky just enjoying the quiet between them, knowing that any moment Gai and Lee would probably find them.
