#teddums

Thankyou to my Big Sis Jennifer @bloodylilcorpse for my smol purple teddums fan! 🤗💜🧸🌬

I have such great frens! Jeannie also got a purple headphones type fan for our Sis, Karen @lingling.1989 for when she's at work. 💜🎧

Like I said, purple for us queens~ 🥰👑💜

ofminorstature said: sending you a bunch of love <3 <3 <3 but please know your tumblr is where you should be able to vent and release some feelings! even knowing you might feel differently tomorrow, it’s good being able to express what is happening in the now. kisses ;3;

caboodlederps said: Honey never be sorry to vent on your own blog! And please never hesitate to reach out to people :) You are a wonderful person and deserve ALL the love <3 And I’m here for you, if you need someone to talk to!

teddums said: elle you don’t have to apologise, we follow you because we love. we’re over here cheering you on always. <3

jyami said: don’t apologize for not feeling well, it’s okay. take the time you need to sort these feelings out and focus on yourself, on getting better. it’s hard but you can do it! these feelings are temporary. sending lots of love your way!! <3

hethatcures said: You are valid. What you feel is valid. Wishing you positive energy.

Thank you all so much for your kindness, I really really appreciate it, and it helped calm me down last night. So sincerely, thank you. 

I am not in a good place mentally at the moment and I need to work out how to get through this. And I think that is going to involve a little going quiet on here (who am I kidding, I bet I’ll be back and posting at full pelt by the weekend), a little pruning of who I’m following and pruning of my back catalogue of posts. 

As much as venting helps at the time, having a near permanent record of when I’m feeling like shit is less productive and ends up reinforcing my bad feelings. It’s stuff like this that lead to me nuking my old Live Journal many many years ago. So... like, this isn’t going to become rainbows and unicorns but I need to find a way to deal with things that isn’t just giving breath to everything I hate about myself.