#teacup-boy

I wish you could drown me. plunge me into warmth and emotion and feel as everything spills out of my lungs. pour paint over my head, thick and glossy like every positive word you've said about me, stuck to my throat and keeping me coughing up colour for weeks. I need to be engulfed in something. not flame. I do not have the passion left, there is no spark to spring me into that obsessive frenzy. there is just you and me. you and the cracking of my bones, of the cold stare in my eyes. the quiet but repetitive drip of residue against the floor, pooling beneath me and showing an outpour of colour so vibrant that I only wish it be mine. Take me Whole.

So strangely overwhelmed from nothing I just want to sit in the dark and curl up and forget everything for a few minutes I just want to let go of all obligation and just. let myself rest for once. I wish it didn't have to always feel like it was me alone against the world