#tchq.ooc

this p much sums me up tbh.

first of all i am very sorry to the wonderful people i will be leaving behind because i have loved plotting and threading with you all!! i would have been here a year i think in may and it’s been so good getting to know you all. i’ve had some of the most indepth and interesting plots and i’ll be sad to see you go.

pouring one out for anastasia romanovna, my true queen and i’ll miss her sm she was truly an icon and i’m proud of what i created with her, a lot of work went into her and i’m glad i did it. also shout out to the romanov fam we created a legendary family - so to kate and mai and maya and ra and rose thank you!! (shout out to britt too, irina was an honourary member we all know this)

i just feel my journey here is at an end, and that my characters no longer fit in this environment or with the new direction this rp has taken. i largely feel pushed aside by what seems to be a new era, one that does not have room for my ideas. i can handle how i’ve been treated, however, it’s truly the experience of my closest friends that has made this decision for me because what i won’t put up with, is my friends being made to feel like they aren’t good enough or don’t belong.

first off - to the german fam i started off with ( and the prussians as well tbh ) : dee, vivi, maya, rose, aria, lena, jess and god knows how many people i’m forgetting and how many other people have left. you guys were amazing and i will love my time with you guys more than i can ever say. other than that - luna, ali, britt,  - if nothing else, you know that i’ll follow you over a fucking cliff because you have my support always. fucking always. you know that, i’m telling you that again, and i love you all so much. 

otherwise, to every single person i have met here: never have i ever ( ever ) been nice to any of you for the sake of it or shut you out on purpose. that’s not me, and i have genuinely loved plotting and rp-ing with every single one of you. i’ve loved seeing you guys on the dash. i’ve loved hearing about your days. i’ve loved every single moment. i’ve always tried to plot with legit everyone ( which has backfired on me a lot, lbr. i’ve had thirty threads going at any given time but it’s always been fun. ) you guys are amazing, your writing is amazing and ily all.

i’m not gonna say i’ve had the same problems as everyone else, because i would be a hypocrite. minnie’s been incredibly nice to me when we’ve talked. jord - you know how i feel, i’ve told you enough.  

but with that said, i’ve sat on my hands for a very long time and done nothing. that’s my fault, and i wish i’d said something earlier. i’ll be honest, it’s not easy to deal with being here if you’ve got anxiety, it’s REALLY not. i also don’t feel like there are any plots left for my characters because...honestly, there aren’t. i just no longer feel like my characters have any space to exist. there’s nothing for them here, tbh. modern au was a nice break from that, but seriously. i just feel like they’ve been boxed in and there’s no point to them anymore. i’m pretty much writing for the sake of writing and activity checks. there’s a bunch of reasons why, but that’s all i’ll say on the matter here. 

worst of all, i cannot swallow people i genuinely, genuinely respect and care for being treated badly or made to feel like absolute shit. that’s one thing i cannot take. i do think of them as close friends, my day is never complete without talking to a lot of them or checking up on them to make sure they’re okay, and the fact that they have to go through this is something i’m not okay with. it’s not okay with me at all.

@ any new members, i don’t really want to be too petty but i’d warn you from joining here, it’s a truly toxic environment the admins have created w/ favoritism and they genuinely do not care about you!! if your name aint minnie then they’ll basically only do shit that benefits them so <3 gl trying to fit into their clique