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You were there through it all, watching him slowly fall apart and then slowly put himself back together with the help of his group mates, and eventually, he overcame the heartbreak. 

There was one good thing that came from the heartbreak, however, and that was the newly bloomed relationship between the two of you. Jacob saw it coming first, constantly teasing the two of you at the dorms until Kevin blatantly came out and confessed his feelings for you. Ever since then, there was constant complaining about what seemed to be the never-ending honeymoon phase but knowing that you guys were perfect together, the group loved seeing you two together.

That’s why you were shocked when you decided to surprise Kevin at the dance studio, at the request of Sangyeon who stated that Kevin seemed to be off, but came face-to-face with him talking to the one person you thought you would never see again. 

Eric noticed you first, a widening of his eyes seen in your peripheral vision as he nudged Juyeon’s eyes in your direction. 

“Y/N!” Haknyeon strains, not necessarily calling out for you but saying your name so Kevin noticed you were there. 

Kevin’s eyes snap up to meet yours, a quick flash of fear lighting up his eyes before he backs away from the girl next to him and shuffles his feet against the floor to make his way towards you.

“Hey, what are you doing here?” He softly asks, taking your free hand in his, rubbing your hand in soothing circles.

You shake your head, snapping out of a trance that seemed to overcome you as you stared at the girl. “I- Sangyeon, he told me to come bring lunch and eat with you guys but it seems like you guys are busy so here,” You shove the bag from his favorite sushi place towards him, not letting even a minute go by before you let go of the bag and turn on your heel. 

You rush out the door, not bothering to glance at Kevin again and retracing the steps that you excitedly walked on your way here. You heard Kevin call behind you and soon you feel a hand clasp around your wrist and turn you around. 

“Woah- wait,” Kevin says, his eyes searching your face for any sort of emotion, however, you remained stoic, not letting your guard down. “I can explain.”

It was like those three words triggered something in you, causing you to attempt to pull your hand away from Kevin’s grip but he refused to let go as if the gesture meant something more than just wanting to pull away from him. “Explain? Kevin how can you possibly explain what my ex-best friend who just so happens to be your ex-girlfriend was doing at your practice. Are you forgetting something cause I vividly remember what happened.”

Flashes played in your head of Kevin crying to you on the phone, repeatedly asking what was wrong with him and how he could be better. It was the previous relationship that had you so strict on telling each other everything, but it seemed like he was on a different page than you.

“Just tell me this,” You begin, your eyes blazing with what could have been anger or hurt or maybe even both. “Did you know she was coming or did she show up on her own?”

“I-” Kevin begins, his words failing himself as he realizes that there was no way he could be in the right here. “I knew she was coming, she told me last night.”

You think about this morning, how Kevin blamed his antsy demeanor on what would be a difficult practice session today, realizing that he had the opportunity to tell you yet he didn’t. 

“Right,” You mutter, tugging your hand out of Kevin’s grasp and disregarding his attempts to make you stay and listen. 

-

It took approximately three minutes after you arrived at your apartment until your phone flooded with texts. 

SANGyeon: I didn’t know she was coming, I am so sorry

jacob bae(con): Hey, text me if you need anything. Also, Haknyeon and Eric keep bugging me telling me they’re sorry but they also said they’re not sure what for

jacob bae(con): Whatever is happening, I know you guys can overcome it :) He didn’t tell us exactly what happened with the heathen but I’m sure there was a reason she was there

kebbie <3: can I come over once practice is over? please, I need to explain baby

kebbie <3: i have to get off the phone, we need to practice but please text me.

kebbie <3: i’ll be waiting

And he did wait, he waited for approximately two days until Eric couldn’t take any more of his seclusion and sadness, so he decided to take matters into his own hands. 

“Oh wow, you actually picked up,” Eric gasps on the other end of the line, in genuine disbelief. 

“Eric, this is the only time I got a call from you,” You question, knowing what he was up to. You knew deep down that you missed Kevin, no matter how hard it was to admit it. The small push you needed to see Kevin in person and have him explain to you what happened was nowhere to be seen as Sangyeon and Jacob decided that space was best for you but thankfully, Eric Sohn was your saving grace. 

“I know, but you won’t answer Kevin’s calls so I didn’t know if you would respond to me,” Eric takes a deep breath as if he was the one who was currently in an argument with their significant other, causing you to roll your eyes. “Anyways, can you please come over cause Kevin barely leaves his room and he has eaten one bagel in the two days you haven’t been talking to him and it’s genuinely bumming me out.”

You scoff at Eric’s story, shaking your head lightly at the maknae’s words. “I’m so sorry this has been such a big burden to you, Eric. Also, did you say he hasn’t been eating?”

“Yeah.”

“Aren’t you guys supposed to be carb loading him though? For the comeback?”

“I’ll see you in thirty?” Eric questions, knowing that his deed was done. No matter how mad you could have been, Eric knew that you cared for Kevin more than anybody he knew.

“See you in thirty,” You affirmed. 

Thirty minutes turned out to be more like fifteen with you speeding down to go see Kevin. You were still upset with him, but that didn’t mean you weren’t longing to see him. 

“Oh thank God,” Jacob sighs out when he opens the dorm doors. You take off the mask that was covering your face and pull down the hoodie that you were wearing, which belonged to Kevin, and waved at Jacob. 

When Eric spots you, he gleefully jumps from his spot on the couch and runs up to you. “Have you been crying?” He asks.

“Gee Eric, thanks,” You mutter, rolling your eyes. The last two days were hard to get through and you weren’t going to lie and say a few or more tears didn’t slip from your eyes when you hugged your pillow at night. 

“Anytime, he’s in his room by the way,” Eric nonchalantly says, dismissing any offense you could’ve taken from his comment. 

Gathering your courage, you make your way to Kevin’s room, but you can’t help but stay frozen in position at the front of his door. Taking one last deep breath, you finally knock on his door.

Your heart felt like it was going to beat out of its chest with the way it was pounding right now but it slowed down a little when you heard a soft “come in” on the other end. 

When you enter, Kevin is laying on his bed, his back facing the door. Your heart drops to your chest when he finally looks over his shoulder to see who entered the room. 

“Y/N,” He mumbles underneath his breath, scrambling to get up from his earlier position. He rubs at his eyes tiredly and you frown at his appearance. 

“I’m sorry, I’m a mess,” He dryly chuckles as he gets up to smooth out the cover of his sheets, as if you cared about the tidiness of his bed. 

“Kev, it’s ok, I just came to talk,” You softly say. 

The thing was, you knew Kevin, and you knew him well. Kevin would never admit it, but when he’s sad, he’s fragile, and the last thing you ever wanted to do was break him, not like she did. 

“Yeah, talk, I can do that,” Kevin says mainly to himself before sitting back down on the bed and patting the spot next to him for you to sit at. 

You take a seat on the bed, sitting close enough so he would understand you weren’t mad at him but far enough so he knew you were upset. 

“I heard you haven’t been eating very well,” You start off, not wanting to rush Kevin into talking about anything. 

“Haven’t been hungry,” He mutters underneath his breath, staring at his clasped hands in his lap. “All I could think about was you.”

“I think I’m ready to hear what happened,” You say, preparing yourself for whatever could have possibly happened the day at the dance studio. 

Kevin hesitates before taking a few seconds to himself to gather his thoughts before explaining the story. 

“That night she texted me, she told me that she wanted to apologize to me and I know,” Kevin takes a deep breath before continuing. “I know I didn’t owe her anything but something told me to just see what she had to say and that day at the studio, she told me that she was dating this guy and at first I thought she came to just rub it into my face so I told her to leave but then she told me that he ended up cheating on her.”

You reach across to take one of Kevin’s shaking hands in yours, rubbing soothing circles against it. Talking about her evidently brought up bad memories for him, and you understood why he did what he did. 

He had always been a good person, a heart too big for his body. It would’ve been unlike him if he just brushed off the text he got from her. 

“She apologized for the whole thing and that she felt like it was karma for treating me the way she did. She also told me that she missed you and that she was sorry. That was right before you came in,” Kevin explains.

It was silent for a while, you trying to wrap your head what he had just told you but Kevin must have mistook your silence for something else because he soon started to speak again, letting out his next few words like they were a secret. 

“You know, after you left, I told her I forgave her because, in the end, it brought me to you. I’d go through what happened a hundred times again if it meant I got to have you in the end, I know you might still be angry at me, but I just feel like I had to tell you that.”

You immediately softened after Kevin’s confession, resisting the urge from not explaining your side of the story and simply kissing him so he could understand just how much you loved him. 

“Kevin,” You begin. “I was never angry at you. I was just upset because hiding things isn’t like us. I thought we told each other everything and I just expected you to tell me this too, especially since she texted you.” You explain, sighing. 

“I know, it was dumb of me to keep this from you, but I know you don’t like it when she’s brought up so I thought that I would just see what she wants on my own.”

“You never have to do anything on your own, Kevin. It’s us till the end,” You softly smile, pushing yourself a little closer to him so you could wrap your arms around his stomach and put your head to his chest. 

“Yeah, us till the end,” Kevin whispers, placing a kiss on the top of your head.