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- Eileen received an urgent owl fortunately when Tobias was out drinking in the pub.

- The letter was vague but firm that she needed to go to Hogwarts immediately. Deputy Headmistress McGonagall would apperate to her home and they would take a port key for Hogwarts the following day.

- She felt anxious as she read the letter and quickly penned a reply and wondered just what her son was up to.

- She didn’t know what to feel as she once again stood in the Headmaster’s office, not quite different from when she was a student. 

- Dumbledore made her take an oath of silence before telling her anything. She protested quite loudly but her worry for her son eventually won out. She sometimes stay up at night and wonder that she would have been more use had she been able to scream the truth to the Prophet.

- She slapped the Headmaster after he finished telling her what happened. The portraits surprisingly remaining silent after the assault.

- Lily Evans was teary eyed, sitting on her son’s bedside holding his hand. They hadn’t spoken much because Severus rarely brought Lily to their home but the girl clung to her as she herself felt numb in seeing the state of her son.

- After the nurse ushered the young girl out, she sat near his head and wiped the sweat on his forehead. 

- Healer Pomfrey and her yelled at the Headmaster when he insisted that St. Mungos couldn’t offer Severus what Hogwarts couldn’t. 

- Eileen and Pomfrey knew deep down that he was right. That they were just making sure her boy could be as comfortable as possible.

- He woke in the middle of night and Eileen nearly wept.

- He was feverish, muttering about beasts and bullies. She assured him that he was safe and that she was so sorry.

- He seemed surprised by her presence and her heart broke once again as he asked about his father and that he might be angry when he finds that you’ve gone mum. 

- She assured him that she would be fine. That they’d leave Tobias together if he fought this and survived. She begged and bargained but she knew it was futile. Severus had a small smile as if imagining such scenarios and Eileen wondered when she last saw her son smile.

- He was slipping in and out of consciousness ad Eileen wanted nothing but to take the pain away.

- During his moments in between lucidity and fever he gripped her hand as tight as he could and looked at her with such frightened eyes. I don’t want to die mum. Eileen gripped his hand with both of hers and kissed his knuckles. I wanted to be a potions master. I wanted to help you move away from Tobias, to help you back in the wizarding world. I don’t want to die.They both had tears in their eyes. I’m sorry mum. I’m sorry. It was my fault.

- Eileen cried her heart out as her son once again slipped into unconsciousness. She kept apologizing about everything and eventually fell asleep, never hearing the soft pitter-patter of feet discreetly exiting the hospital wing.

- She felt a piece of her soul die the moment her Severus stopped breathing.

- She acquired a old book of spells from a dubious source and set about righting the wrongs in her mind.

- Severus was destined to be great. He was meant to be brilliant at whatever career he chose and he was denied his destiny. Eileen swore to do her best to rectify that error.

I’m running out of ideas and finally took at the first post I made in this blog. Re-naming this AU as The Boy Who Never Grew Up, Pan!AU seems misleading.

Continuation of this:

Part 1: https://thesnapewecandreamof.tumblr.com/post/176938116799/harry-potter-au-idea