I am already planning Halloween costumes!

I so so so want to dress Naomi as Alice in Wonderland this year because with her white blond hair and gorgeous blue eyes she’d be the cutest thing ever, but she’s super interested in either a robot or a puppy costume. I’ll do whatever it is she wants cause it’s her choice but c’mon, child. You’re messing with my aesthetic! :p Last year she was an adorable blue dinosaur and the year before that she was a 50′s poodle skirt girl and the year before THAT she was a skeleton (she was two months old and i had a skeleton sleeper. creativity was not foremost in my mind).

Jake won’t wear a costume because he has no sense of fun AT ALL. But I’m gonna do something that takes advantage of my growing belly. I saw a cute kangaroo costume but I’m still researching. The fun is just dressing up! 

This is gonna start out as a grumpy post. And it’s long. You’ve been forewarned.

I’m so so over pregnancy. Already.

I was pretty miserable while pregnant with Naomi, but nothing like this. I mean, it turns out I was dying of untreated hyperemesis gravidarum so at least there is a legit reason for me to be so miserably unhappy with this pregnancy. Even on the steroids that are currently managing my HG (allergic to all anti-nausea meds!), I’m still nauseous and so so tired. Plus throw in an extremely active, minimally verbal, nearly three year old and around 1600 I start counting down the hours until bedtime! (hers and mine; as soon as she’s in bed, I’m in bed.)

BUT, on the bright side, here are some things I am grateful for.

1. Only two weeks ago, before my hospital admission, I had been on self imposed (body imposed really) bed rest for nearly three months. I was keeping down one meal about every three days and a few sips of water every day. I was regularly vomiting blood and bile and had lost 20lbs in one month. TODAY, I ran some light errands, made a quick and easy dinner, kept down that yummy dinner and was able to enjoy splashing in puddles with my toddler.

2. Weeks ago I couldn’t even look at a screen for long without triggering vomiting or a migraine and now I’m able to browse the internet if I want!

3. A week from tomorrow we find out whether we’re having a girl or a boy! And despite being initially against wanting to find out the sex (we didn’t with Naomi), I am actually really looking forward to finding out baby number three’s gender! (we always just assume Sunny was a girl. I lost her too young to know for sure but it’s the feeling I have in my heart.)

4. Naomi starts school in a month so I’ll have a couple hours to myself every day so I can nap or bathe alone (oh the novelty!) and she’ll be having a blast working with her speech therapist and playing with friends.

5. It’s been so awesome to see how people have come around to help when they realized how sick I was. Poor Jake was being mom and dad on top of working a full time job and I know it was wearing on him. Plus seeing your spouse waste away in front of you can’t be fun. But with people delivering meals a couple times a week, picking up Naomi for play dates so I can rest and our families bringing groceries and running errands, I feel like some of the light has come back into our lives.