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Beautiful Disaster <—CLICK TO READ ON FF.NET :) reviews

I know a drugstore cowgirl, so afraid of getting bored. She’s always running from something,so many things ignored. Beautiful disaster, flyin’ down the street again. I tried to keep up. You wore me out and left me ate up. Now I wish you all the luck. You’re a butterfly in the wind without a care. A pretty traincrash to me and I can’t care. I do. I don’t. Whatever. 

Twilight - Rated: M - English - Drama/Romance - Chapters: 10 - Words: 26,216 - Reviews: 21 - Updated: 2-22-13 - Published: 3-31-12 - Bella & Edward 

——————CHAPTER 10 PREVIEW—————-

EPOV

“Why are you here, Alice?” I say, in the calmest way possible.

“I’ve missed you, Edward!” She cries, tears welling up in her eyes.

“There has to be more to it than that! I’m not stupid!” I yell back, my jaw set tight and my hands balled into fists at my sides. “You think I need a babysitter? Is that it? You wanna be close in case I try to off myself again?!”

“I worry about you! You don’t know what it’s like, Edward! You didn’t find me half-dead lying in a pile of my own vomit! I just want to be around you. To know for myself that you’re okay! Please don’t be mad at me! I love you!” Tears are streaming down her face freely now, my resolve weakening.

I do know what it’s like to watch someone you care about almost die.

Bella.

It was terrifying and haunting…

I don’t want to say anything about it to Alice, now is not the time to bring it up, and she knows I can’t stay mad at her. She’s my weakness, my soft spot.

I just hate that she’s treating me like a child. Why can’t she just live her life and be happy? I don’t want to be a burden to her.

“You don’t have to worry anymore. I’m…fine now.” I say, swallowing the lump in my throat.

“Is this because of Bella? What if something goes wrong? I just wanna be here for you.”

“It is because of her. She makes me happy.” I say through gritted teeth, anger still evident in my voice. “Look, Alice, you had a life in New York. Why in the world would I be okay with you throwing your dreams away for me?!” I scream, waving my hands. “I’m not worth it! Go live your life!”

“You are worth it! Don’t you get it?” She snaps, her features becoming angry. “You have people who love you, Edward! People who want to be here for you. Just accept it! I’m staying and that’s final.” With that, she storms off, her heels clicking angrily on the linoleum floors.

I walk back over to Bella, trying to compose myself by taking deep breaths while I approach her. “Wanna get out of here?”

She smiles softly at me. “Yeah, let’s go.” She says, grabbing my hand and linking our fingers together. The second our skin makes contact, I finally relax.