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Jamie walks on his knees across the pitch, watches with a thrill and a spike of heat as Roy's jaw drops. He's speechless, motionless, when Jamie comes to kneel between his feet. Speechless, motionless, and - when Jamie sneaks a glance before averting his eyes respectfully back to Roy's face - hard.

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[NON-GRAPHIC DISCUSSION OF PAST SEXUAL ABUSE]

"Or, if it was me with Keeley. And Keeley felt like that sometimes, 'cause of something I was doing to her, only she didn't never tell me so I just kept doing it and making her feel like that… Rather wouldn't have sex with her at all, honestly. So I gotta know so I can be able to tell her. Or, you know. Whoever. 'Cause they wouldn't want to do it." Dr. Sharon smiles slightly. She takes a moment to stare at Jamie with a gentle sort of amusement that Jamie gets from Keeley and his mum all the time and used to get from Ted too, sometimes. Then she gives Jamie a slightly more pointed look and points out, "And you said you and she haven't been having much sex since that talk?" "Yeah," Jamie confirms. She stares at him some more, waiting for him to figure something out. He stares back, waiting for the same thing. "...Oh. Well," Jamie throws up his hands, "how am I supposed to ever figure it out then?" "Do you really need to?" Dr. Sharon asks. Jamie glares and opens his mouth, irritated to have to repeat himself which she usually doesn't make him do. But she shakes her head slightly to let him know she's not quite done asking. "Are you interested in having sex with other people?" "No," Jamie says, and then immediately feels like a liar for some reason. "Rather, are you interested in having more one night stands or other casual, short-term affairs," Dr. Sharon clarifies, apparently seeing something conflicted in Jamie's face. Right good at her job, Dr. Sharon is. "No," Jamie says, and that feels much better. "In that case, does it not seem redundant to go out of your way to find out what your sex-related triggers are with Ms. Jones when presumably the only person you need to be prepared to have informed discussions of the topic with is Ms. Jones herself?" She pauses there to let Jamie parse through her point. He supposes she's kind of right. There wouldn't really be any difference between finding something Jamie doesn't like on purpose and talking about how not to do it again versus finding it by accident and having the same talk. Still… Something rubs Jamie the wrong way. "I should know," he repeats, helpless and grouchy. Dr. Sharon makes another considering noise. "Are you concerned that Ms. Jones wants to end her sexual relationship with you?" she asks. "No," Jamie answers, and it's surprisingly easy. Their first go around he wasn't worried about it then either, but out of hubris. Then for a while he was a bit worried she wouldn't want to even be his friend, and then when they started up again this time he figured for a while he might just be a rebound to her. But he's confident now, more confident than he'd even realized. They have a real grown-up relationship now, one like what Mummy and Simon have. It's mental. In a good way. "Then I don't see any practical reason for you to actively seek out this information." She pauses, tilts her head in that way that means she wants him to try some eye contact with her, to really hear her and take her seriously. "Jamie. You don't have to be ready to have sex with anyone who might be interested." "Yeah, I know that," Jamie mutters petulantly. "I know what consent is." "Of course I'd trust you to know that about yourself better than I do," Dr. Sharon agrees easily, sitting back again. "But sometimes it's helpful to hear these things said out loud, especially by an uninvolved party. And I think it's relevant here to point out that you're allowed not only to say no, but also to be unable to say yes." Jamie doesn't ask what the difference is, even though he kind of wants to just to be difficult. He's pretty sure he gets it. He's also pretty sure it's not gonna sink in properly in just this visit. Still, he's here for a reason, and it can't hurt. "...say it again?" Dr. Sharon smiles. "You don't have to have sex with anyone, Jamie."