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🌸 cherry – rina sawayama

tender gay panic. it’s the sound of thinking “this means nothing” while staring at the wall for 45 minutes. at one point i had to put my paintbrush down and just… breathe through it.

🌙 the archer – taylor swift

this one hits when you least want it to. i don’t always claim her, but she always claims me. best listened to under tragic lighting or while laying in a pile of laundry and existential dread.

🚗 motion sickness – phoebe bridgers rage but make it sad. it’s the “i’m fine” text followed by dead silence and blasting this on your headphones like a warning sign. absolutely top-tier spiral material.

🛏️ sleepover – hayley kiyoko this one just aches. it’s the space between wanting something and not knowing if you’re allowed to. makes me want to scream into a pillow and then apologize to it.

👽 space girl – frances forever this one’s for when i remember life is weird and gay and kind of fun sometimes. like: yes i’m spiraling, but make it sparkle.

🎀 silk chiffon – MUNA (feat. phoebe bridgers) everything is soft and a little unhinged. this is the closest i get to optimism without immediately backtracking. sometimes i dance to this in my socks and pretend i’m not a mess.

🔥 cuff your jeans – claud a classic “i don’t know what i’m doing but i’m having feelings anyway” vibe. i don’t know if this one helps or hurts, but i keep hitting replay like it has answers.

🧊 soft universe – AURORA beautiful and weird and overwhelming in a way that feels kind of safe. makes me want to lie on the floor of the planetarium and disassociate. so, perfect.

🪞 shadowboxer – fiona apple rage but classy. bruised-knuckle energy in a silk glove. feels like painting your feelings with a knife. for when you’ve decided to emotionally shut down but with elegance.

Sansa Stark - Game of Thrones (86%)

“When the snows fall and the white winds blow, the lone wolf dies, but the pack survives.”

Julian Bashir - Star Trek: Deep Space Nine

"Oh... well, who am I to argue with me?"

Dr. Bedelia Du Maurier - Hannibal

“The traumatized are unpredictable because we know we can survive.”

Mel Medarda - Arcane

“I recognize that any worthwhile venture involves risk.”

Sam Seaborn - The West Wing

“I think ambition is good; I think overreaching is good”

Astrid Leong-Teo - Crazy Rich Asians

“It was never my job to make you feel like a man. I can't make you something you're not.”

QUE TAL DESCREVER O FÍSICO?

Voz: Melodiosamente agradável, grave e aveludada, apresenta uma rouquidão meio sensual. Mas a garota possui vários tons dependendo da situação em que se encontra. Às vezes parece que está conspirando alguma coisa devido ao tom baixo e rápido de se expressar; entretanto, a rapidez não impede sua voz de soar limpa e clara, sem ruídos. Quando sua mente se encontra com um turbilhão de pensamentos ou ideias, se torna hesitante. E, se quer persuadir ou convencer alguém a fazer algo por ela, as palavras saltam de sua língua como carícias aos ouvidos. É fácil se deixar levar pelos sons que saem dos lábios da jovem Hood, assim como é fácil perceber quando está exageradamente feliz ou irritada: algumas notas saem do ritmo, quase como se estivessem desafinadas e sua voz ganha um tom levemente agudo, fora do usual.

Idade: Dezoito anos, faz aniversário em vinte e seis de março

Gênero: Cis gênero feminino

Peso e altura: 58 Kg e 1,70 cm

Sexualidade: Heterossexual    

Defeitos físicos: Algumas cicatrizes no joelho e uma próxima ao couro cabeludo ao lado direito resultado de uma queda de uma de árvore quando era criança. Fora isso, os nós dos dedos da mão são meio machucados de uma briga ou outra que se envolve e no braço     esquerdo possui uma fina risca de faca de quando treinava com o senhor Hood.

Qualidades físicas: Todos que a conhecem pela primeira vez dizem que a jovem herdou toda a beleza de Lady Marian. Entretanto, não se considera tão bonita assim. Acontece que Alexis passou a acreditar no que as pessoas falavam a seu respeito e passou a usar seu “rostinho bonito” para conseguir alguns benefícios. Acredita que o que mais chama atenção são seus olhos grandes e azuis tão profundos e hipnotizadores que são capazes de encantar qualquer um, mas no geral, apresenta uma harmonia interessante se analisar todo o conjunto que a compõe.

É saudável? Tanto quanto possível. Alexis come literalmente de tudo e em quantidades consideráveis, entretanto, como está sempre em movimento praticando algum esporte, seu metabolismo é extremamente rápido.

Maneira de andar: Graciosamente silenciosa. Alexis tem uma maneira cadenciada de caminhar, assim como de executar todos os seus outros movimentos. Parece até que eles são todos cuidadosamente planejados, mesmo os não intencionais. Apesar de não praticar dança, seus pés se movem coordenadamente como se estivem deslizando ou pisando em alguma superfície muito fofa, tão macia que seus passos quase se fazem inaudíveis. A postura também se mantém impecável, com uma posição desleixada somente uma vez ou outra quando está relaxada entre amigos ou descansando.

QUE TAL DESCREVER O PSICOLÓGICO?

Práticas / Hábitos: É comum colocar alguns fios de cabelo atrás da orelha ou passar as mãos pelo rosto assim como mordiscar os lábios ou umedecê-los. Também tem o costume de franzir a testa e estreitar os olhos quando está pensando ou analisando uma situação e seus lábios como reflexo formam um leve bico, praticamente imperceptível. Cruzar os braços também é um costume.

Inteligência: Alexis é naturalmente dotada de uma inteligência a ser apreciada, porém sua falta de motivação em utilizá-la quando o assunto são os estudos fazem da garota alguém medíocre. Se o assunto, entretanto for algum plano mirabolante a fim de ingressar em uma grande aventura, então o cenário é outro: sua mente trabalha a mil.

Temperamento: Uma palavra seria capaz de definir o temperamento da jovem Hood muito bem: impaciência. A rotina a entedia facilmente e está sempre em busca de fazer algo novo. A garota também pode ser provocativa e gosta de ver e fazer as coisas acontecerem, por isso pode ser impulsiva em alguns momentos. Porém, sabe e está aprendendo ainda mais no instituto a como deve se portar e se controlar em determinadas situações e não simplesmente falar tudo o que deseja.

O que te faz feliz? Liberdade.

O que te faz triste? Imposições.

Esperanças: Conseguir fazer sua própria história e trazer o nome dos Hood para os holofotes mais uma vez.

Medos: Ficar a sombra de um homem/marido ou ter sua voz e seus desejos sufocados

Sonhos: Ser a protagonista de sua própria vida/história

QUE TAL DESCREVER ASPECTOS PESSOAIS?

Família: Uma incrível dualidade, talvez por ser um reflexo da própria vida dos Hood. Hora seus pais lhe ensinavam sobre a importância de ser uma lady perante a sociedade, hora estavam mostrando as artimanhas para saber como se defender. A própria Alexis quando finalmente descobriu as atividades secundárias dos pais, entrou em um profundo conflito interno antes de também abraçar a causa. Foi criada para expressar suas opiniões e é por isso que tem bastante abertura em casa, desta forma se dá muito bem com a família apesar das divergências de pensamentos e sabe que pode contar com eles para o que precisar, assim como lutaria e os defenderia até o final se for preciso. Isso provavelmente se dê pelo fato de ser filha única e ser bastante próxima a eles.

Amigos: Desconfiada no início com todas as suas relações, assim que alguém ganha a sua confiança, ganha automaticamente uma defensora pessoal ferrenha e parceira para todas as horas. Entretanto, Alexis tem seus momentos de isolamento por acreditar que algumas decisões precisam ser feitas sozinha, além de que em alguns momentos, precisará ascender também por conta própria em sua busca pelo seu próprio conto.

Estado Civil: Solteira.

Terra Natal: Nottingham, próximo a floresta de Sherwood. Foi lá onde nasceu e cresceu, mesmo local que seus pais moram até hoje. O vilarejo, por ser próximo de uma grande floresta e o famoso senhor Hood conhecer o lugar como a palma de suas mãos foi o cenário perfeito para o treinamento da garota tanto no que diz respeito à camuflagem, fuga e sobrevivência, quanto a utilização de algumas armas como facas, espadas e o grande símbolo da família: arco e flecha.

Infância: Recebeu muita informação, talvez tanta que só está encontrando sentido para algumas dessas coisas agora, que está trilhando o caminho para a vida adulta. Desde muito cedo seus pais lhe passavam conceitos e explicavam como o mundo funcionava e talvez isso tenha feito a criança amadurecer muito cedo e questionar a autoridade dos pais em alguns momentos. Veja bem, meu caro leitor, a jovem Alexis cresceu tendo uma espécie de amigo mais velho como figuras paternas então para ela era difícil conceber a ideia de broncas ou sermões. Além de que não havia filtros para as respostas que lhe eram oferecidas aos seus questionamentos, por isso, quando não obtém     respostas atualmente fica frustrada. Apesar disso, teve bastante     oportunidade para brincar e se divertir, tanto em sua casa bem ornamentada quanto na floresta e na cabana escondida montada pelos pais.

Crenças: É difícil conceber suas crenças: acredita que tudo é possível de se existir. Afinal de contas, nenhuma verdade é absoluta e prefere manter-se de mente aberta para qualquer crença.

Hobbies: Subir em árvores ou pular na margem de algum lago para fazer espirrar água. Apesar de ser agitada e gostar de estar em movimento, muitas vezes gosta de parar e contemplar a beleza a sua volta.

QUE TAL DESCREVER PRÁTICAS?

Comida favorita: Ovos mexidos e bolo de limão com cobertura de açúcar.

Bebida favorita: Chá de maçã com canela, odeia admitir isso, mas é sua bebida favorita.

O que costuma vestir? Roupas práticas como botas, calças e blusas que lhe permitam o movimento, mas também costuma usar vestidos quando acorda querendo se mostrar delicada, mas sempre com sapatos confortáveis que lhe possibilitem sair correndo ou escalar algum lugar.

O que mais o diverte? Conspirar alguma coisa.

Por último, liste PERSONAGENS FICTÍCIOS que serviriam de inspiração para o seu atual personagem:

GENERAL STATS

BASIC INFO

Name: Nijiko Kato

Pronunciation: Nee-Jee-Ko, Kah-To

Nickname(s): Niji (preferred name)

Age: 25

Date and place of birth: August 20th, 1995 & Newark, New Jersey

Astrological sign: Leo

Gender: Cis Female

Pronouns: She/Her

Nationality: American

Ethnicity: Japanese

Occupation: Middle School Music Teacher

Education: Bachelors in Music Education from the University of Michigan

Religious beliefs: Roman Catholic (2009-2011), Presbyterian (2013-Present)

THE PHYSICAL

Height: 5′5

Weight: 123lb

Body Type: Slight with some curves

Hair: Black (naturally), Brown (dyed)

Eyes: Dark Brown

Clothing Preferences: Skirts that are pleated usually to the knee and ironed, button down shirts with a sweater vest or blazer over it, knee high socks and oxfords. Sometimes heels if she feels in the mood to be out of her usual.

Defining Features: Slight overbite, chubby cheeks.

Voice Tone: Soft voice often peppered with laughs and giggles. Speaks rather quick and loses her breath often.

Blood-Type: O+

Allergies: Peanuts and Tree Nuts (was more serious when she was a kid, but has since mellowed out. her throat still swells, but typically an epipen can do the job without a hospital visit.)

ROMANCE

Sexual Orientation: Homosexual

Romantic Orientation: Homoromantic

Do they have a type: Niji prefers women who are older than her and have a more serious outlook on life. To her, a partner that is direct and honest (even if that means blunt) is valuable.

Pet peeves: Hiding secrets. She’d rather just be open and honest with her partner instead of dancing around issues.

PERSONALITY

Likes: cats, music, horror movies + novels, mechanics

Dislikes: math, veggies, disorderliness, snow

Ambivert, introvert or extrovert?: Extrovert

FAMILY

Siblings: Hanayo Kato (22), Mimi Kato (17)

Birth order: Eldest

Parents: Torashi Kato (56), Rima Kato (53), Rev. Thomas Claymore (45, father figure), Maryanne Claymore (45, mother figure)

Children: N/A (Does her cat, Dusty, count?)

Do they want kids: Yes, through adoption assuming her partner also wants to adopt.

SKILLS  

What language(s) do they speak: English and Japanese, though she has trouble reading and writing the latter

What are they talented at: From an early age, Niji was gifted with music and with percussion in particular. To her, this is her defining talent. People tend to be shocked by her aim and accuracy.

What is a hidden talent no one knows of: Niji is skilled with a wrench and a hammer. She took mechanics classes throughout high school and worked on cars with her dad while she was close with him.

What are they worst at: Niji is very bad at keeping things organized and sticking to a schedule. If her job didn’t force her to do so, her whole balance would be out of wack.

A DEEPER LOOK

What is their relationship with their family like?:

For Niji, it has been strained since she was sixteen. At the time, she was hurt most by being kicked out due to her sexuality. Now, she isn’t sure what hurts more: being kicked out or the breach of privacy when her parents looked through her journals to find out. 

She keeps in contact with her little sisters from time to time, willingly taking calls whenever they need her. After all, they are her little sisters. It’s her job to be there for them and they have never done anything to hurt her. 

Her parents, on the other hand, haven’t contacted her since she was kicked out, and since has been estranged from her. 

The pastor and his wife for the church she went to for food and clean clothing while she was on the streets took up the mantle as her father and mother figure, respectively, since she was about seventeen. To Niji, they are her current parents, despite never calling them that, and are the closest thing she has to a real family.

Describe their personality:

Nijiko tries her best to stay optimistic, especially around her friends. Even if she is not feeling well, she will put on a good face for others. If anyone needs something form her, Nijiko is willing to give whatever is needed to help out.

But, her opinion of herself is rather high. When she is good at something Nijiko is very cocky about it. Quick to talk about her achievements and let everyone know about it

Yet, if she fails, she dwells on it four days sometimes, thinking over how she could have been better. To her and for herself only, she expects perfection and nothing less. Nijiko can sit for hours trying to to get something right, starting and restarting it until she’s frustrated.

Are they happy where they are in life:

Her stance in terms of her happiness is a bit turbulent. On one hand, she enjoys her life being free and able to express herself. She loves her job and working with kids who love music as much as she does. Around her is a a group of friends who sees her for who she is. Unlike when she was in New Jersey, Niji can fully be Niji and like what she likes without constant judgement.

On the other hand, she is disconnected form her family and barely talks to her little sisters. Niji would love to talk to Hanayo and Mimi, but she feels the rift between them is deep not because they have done anything to her, but because of the emotional baggage that comes from her being kicked out of the house. There wasn’t much for them to do since they were only 13 and 8 respectively. Her parents never let her explore herself and when she started to come into her own, she was cast out. While she is upset with them for this, them never reaching out and ignoring her contact with them has hurt the most.

What is their dream:

Her long term goal is a bit more difficult. Someday she wants to reconnect to her family. If that cannot happen, she wants to start one of her own and give the freedom and expression to her children that she never had. As much as she wishes to make amends with her parents, forgive them, but not forget what they did to her, them not wanting contact is proving that they don’t feel much remorse for what happened.

BASIC INFORMATION

FULL NAME : isabeau marguerite valois 

MEANING : 

name: isabeau, the medieval french variant of isabel (which is itself a variant of the name elizabeth), means “my god is an oath” 

middle name: marguerite, the french form of margaret, means “pearl” and also refers to the french name for the daisy flower 

surname: valois, the dynasty into which isabeau was born

MONIKERS / NICKNAMES : izzy & beau by her brother louis. some other family members refer to her as ma choupinette

TITLE : 

madame royale 

et fille de france

dowager duchess of burgundy

dowager duchess of anjou

princess isabeau of france (she was not given the style madame royale upon birth)

GENDER & PRONOUNS : cisfemale & she, her, hers

ETHNICITY : white 

DATE OF BIRTH & AGE: october 27, 1528; 30 years old

ZODIAC SIGN : scorpio

ORIENTATION : heterosexual/heteroromantic (to be fair, isabeau is probably bisexual and biromantic, but she’s never had reason to explore that before, so i’ve labeled her as she would label herself)

MARITAL STATUS : widowed; currently betrothed to ferdinand of lorraine

OCCUPATION : madame royale of france

CURRENT LOCATION : sasso corbaro castle, switzerland.

BACKGROUND

PLACE OF BIRTH : palace of fontainebleau

RESIDENCES : château de chenonceau 

RELIGIOUS VIEWS : roman catholic; quite pious

EDUCATION : as a daughter of the king of france, isabeau was educated according to her status. her education was handled entirely by her mother and tended toward religion, languages, history, and the arts, both visual and musical. 

LANGUAGES SPOKEN : 

french (fluent)

latin (fluent) 

german (fluent) 

spanish (fluent)

english (fluent) 

portuguese (moderate) 

russian (moderate) 

polish (weak) 

italian (weak)

ALLEGIANCES : 

house valois of france: by birth

house schleswig-holstein of germany: by betrothal

ottoman empire: by alliance

FAMILY :

king francis II: eldest brother

duke charles of orléans: brother

duke louis of alençon: brother

queen claude of brittany: sister-in-law

duchess clothilde of orléans: sister-in-law

dauphin henri of france: nephew

marquess adhémar of orléans: nephew

viscount jacques of orléans: nephew

OTHER FAMILIAL RELATIONS : n/a at the moment

APPEARANCE

FACECLAIM : matilda lutz

HAIR COLOUR / STYLE : dark golden blonde; her hair is usually bound in braids or twists and covered in a golden net with jewels for decoration. however, isabeau often adapts depending on who she is seeing that day. if she was to see someone from a country that often wore their hair loose, she would likely do the same. 

EYE COLOUR / SHAPE : blue; roundish-almond eyes

HEIGHT : 152 cm/5 feet

BUILD : slim; isabeau has some muscle that comes from horseback riding, but that is the extent of her physical exertion

SPEECH STYLE : isabeau has a very parisian accent and her tone of voice is melodic. she pronounces things rather easily and does not put too much emphasis on any particular syllables. she is very formal with those she does not know well (read: everyone) and that often shows with the words she chooses. 

RECOGNIZABLE MARKINGS : isabeau has a small scar below her collarbone that came about from playing with louis as a child. it is approximately two inches long.

BEAUTY HABITS : isabeau uses cosmetics to ensure that she always looks her best; her hair is often styled and curled if it is left down and she would not ever be seen in public without her rouge and lip paint applied. 

PERSONALITY

TROPES : arranged marriage, parental favoritism (gender), stepford snarker, unequal pairing, youngest child complex

INSPIRATIONS : catherine of aragon, giuliano de’ medici (the younger), cher horowitz, blair waldorf (if you squint)

MBTI : estj-t (the executive)

ENNEAGRAM : type 8 (the challenger) with 8w7 wing

ALIGNMENT : neutral evil

TEMPERAMENT : choleric, melancholic, & sanguine (all within 1 point of each other)

HOGWARTS HOUSE : gryffindor

POSITIVE TRAITS : generous, affectionate, intelligent, articulate

NEGATIVE TRAITS : caustic, sarcastic, self-centered, rash

HABITS : when nervous, isabeau will often clasp her hands in front of her abdomen. When she is in a good mood, she’s often seen smiling while her fingers push wisps of hair behind her ears. isabeau also attends daily mass first thing in the morning

HOBBIES : horseback riding, playing the harp, reading poetry, dancing, discussing theology, viewing art

USUAL DEMEANOR : how they usually portray themselves / may be the first impression taken from them.

HEALTH

PHYSICAL AILMENTS : none at this time

NEUROLOGICAL CONDITION : isabeau has suffered from depression and anxiety, though she has developed coping mechanisms

PHOBIAS : autophobia (fear of isolation)

ALLERGIES : she has seasonal allergies, but they are not diagnosed. as such, isabeau suffers through several months of watery eyes and sneezes if only so she can have flowers in her rooms.

SLEEPING HABITS : isabeau sleeps around seven hours per night, though she often takes naps in the afternoon when she is given the time to do so. she wakes up with some frequency and though she is loathe to admit it, she hates sleeping alone.

SOCIABILITY : isabeau is generally sociable and enjoys parties and spending time with others. however, she is much less sociable in switzerland if only because she half-expects that when she leaves switzerland, it will not be to go home to france.