#system stories

And XIV quickly got tired of being called "two / 2" and was tossing around names and was like "You know, if you take our childhood logic which made 14 a significant number to us and turned it into Roman Numerals it makes a kinda cringey edgelord name. I might consider that as my alternative name"

And me, still being a bit bitter / salty at him and still a lot more of a control freak (lowkey only stopped cause XIV broke me in like a fresh pair of flip flops to be less rigid and strangling) made the mistake of going "You can't just change your name from TWO to FOURTEEN like thats any better, that's so stupid. Plus it sounds STUPID and CRINGEY, like what are we a fucking edgy 14 year old? No I don't agree. It's dumb." and clearly I wasn't used to dealing with the asshat and he went

".... alright, fine cool, I'll go by XIV, see if it sticks, have fun calling me something stupid and cringe 24/7 - ONE."

And it just stuck ever since. After a while everyone else either came up with other names or didn't care in the first place, while I just really couldn't think of any and at a point XIV had fused a few times to the point he didn't really identify with it so he let me have it back XD

Ps, the system has the system-specific holy grail of superpowers (shapeshifting), with the limitation of only being able to shapeshift between what the body looks like and what whoever is fronting looks like, but the mc has the ability to shapeshift to whatever he wants with only like one or two things always staying the same, and he can use that power when he's using the body's power to shapeshift into himself.

Okay so like hair hasn’t been a huge issue in our system much because most of our system disconnect from the body and don’t see it as a personal thing, and the only alter that actually has any problem with it is Ray, but when it comes to body dysmorphia / dysphoria, it is the least of his issue. That plus Aderis and I are very protective of our hair and I have like... a minor fear / high apprehension to salons and getting my hair cut.

Like it isn’t a severe issue, but it isn’t wrong to say last time I went I looked like I was walking into a slaughterhouse. It’s like the only thing I get dysmorphic about because I have like... really long wavy hair in the inner world that I am very very proud of and comfortable with and we have long-ish wavy hair in the real world that I have defended from my Trichotillomania for years with my life so like XD

No one in the system has ever confronted me even asking to cut or trim our hair (with Aderis being the only one who has hair trimming rights since shes a bit of a diva). That being said, Aderis doesn’t come out enough and I admittedly don’t take proper maintenance for our hair and like.... for a few years now like 60% minimum of our hair is like... split ends that I’ve been in denial about XD

And so like Jii is around and they are my like... “fabulous enby duo” as we joke and they were out the other day for the first time around our fiance and pretty much could not handle how frizzy and damaged our hair was and proceeded for the next few days to sit me down and be like “I understand that you love your hair, you know I love long pretty hair too, but you have to understand our hair is dead and it isn’t pretty and healthy if it is dead and we have to handle it or it is only going to get worse”

And like XD Ray commented that it legit just sounded like Jii was trying to get me to stop being in denial about something traumatizing that happened to us cause I would be there like “NO ITS FINE I SWEAR WE DONT NEED TO CUT IT”

And like, EVENTUALLY they won and we are probably going to finally treat our hair’s really bad split ends, but like XD I was pitiful and send everyone in the system a “heyyyy do you mind if we cut our hair to fix it” having a small hope of an excuse to back out of it (cause I love my hair ;w; And even if its for the best it makes me sad ;w;) and like...

Ray and Lucille are dudes that always would prefer shorter hair. Aderis and Jii are divas that have been fed up with the split ends. And the others are either not too active, have short hair themselves, or agree that the hair is kinda annoying and I’m just sitting here like

This whole time :v Have I been the only one that had a problem with cutting our hair??? :v 

And yes :v Yes I was

And so we are getting a hair cut after Jii yelled at me about how it has to be done and breaking me out of my multi-year denial about the condition of our hair :v

For the first time in years, I will have short hair :v

RIP my dysmorphia, congrats to the boys XD

“ Hey, if you are still looking for system asks, 19? “ from @yallshouldsleepmoremydudes1803 since you both asked for 19

11. Name something that you like/enjoy but that one (or more) of your alters doesn’t

*laughs maniacally* There are honestly a number of things one member of the system likes that the others don’t because a lot of us have a tendency to be kinda hyper particular in interests.

Pretty much most non-instrumental music with Lucille since - while respectful about it - he quite literally only listens to classical music with the exception to two songs - one of which is Erlkonig (which hardly counts) and another that is personal.

Also call me weird, but I really like working and doing a lot of things most would consider boring like.... Filling out my budget sheets or like... reading research papers or like.... I dunno doing homework and going to work. Its a bit of a meme that I have a skewed sense of fun towards “boring” and “hardworking” and “tiresome” and I know Aderis and Ray’s definition of fun tends to be more on the lazier / lax end of things.

Oh and I really like long hair. That is actually really a kind of common thing in our system, but Ray I swear would chop it all off if he had the chance.

And relevant to the last post, but Lucille hates the taste of soda where as Aderis and I drink too much of it. Those are just some off the top of my head.

I actually don’t know what everyone’s taste in food is now that I think about it so Im clueless there XD

19. Got any fun system stories to tell?

Hmmm... So lately we’ve been learning the violin, and to give context, Lucille is a huge classical music and just music nerd overall. I am a large fan of music of all forms and would consider myself a music nerd as well, but not to his level, plus I have the tendency to forget how to play if I have any uncertainty about my ability when playing in front of someone. As a result, it’s been a bit amusing going to our lessons to show what progress we’ve made and to get new lessons to work on and return with since the main two learning the violin are me and him.

Why is it interesting? Well for the first lesson and the first half of the second lesson I was the one there, and it was driving me insane cause I dissociate if I am not 100% confident in my playing ability and my playing ability - like a self fufilling prophecy - falls. Its distressing but I’ve played trumpet for 7 or 8 years so I kind of am used to it, and for that second lesson I wasn’t supposed to be out cause the plan was to have that be his responsibility cause I don’t like that discomfort. Anyways, I was out and the teacher was like making a lot of comments on issues and things I knew but was unable to display cause I was *dissociating and dying* and so he noticed our violin bow needed adjusting so he went off to fix it and in that time we managed to switch and it was absolutely HILARIOUS how clearly the playing ability changed XD

Cause the thing is Lucille is somehow like 2x better than me at the violin despite me being the one who practices the most - but he is also 2x better than me at the trumpet and the piano (which we started to pick up) - and he also does not suffer from “I am vulnerable to anxiety-dissociative spirals that remove my ability to perform” so when the teacher came back and Lucille was out, apparently he was like “WOW THATS MORE LIKE IT YOU REALLY SOUND GOOD. YOU GOT THIS DOWN” and spent the whole rest of the lesson being extremely shook on how we suddenly took all his notes and applied it

Then it gets better cause literally everytime I’m out its a normal lesson and its chill, but whenever Lucille is out the teacher has to at least once go “WOW DID YOU PRACTICE MORE BECAUSE YOUR IMPROVEMENT IS REMARKABLE” or something similar XD

Like it would bother me more I feel if I didn’t already go through an insecure panic in highschool over my mental health issues making it so that when people were watching I might randomly loose my ability to play so I learned then that it is just my mental health and if I try to panic too much about it, then it often gets worse so I’ve learned to accept that it isn’t a reflection of my skill and more of just my mind not being the nicest. Then there is also the fact that Lucille is literally better at any obvious skill than me and it is kind of his job as what we call “academic protector” so it is expected and normal for Lucille to make me look bad XD

But I’ve been laughing my ass off over how our violin instructor seems to unknowingly notice and call our our switches every time despite the fact that Lucille is - as a primary protector - very good at pretending to be me if he wants to. So I’ve just been joking around with my fiance that if he ever REALLY questions if it is me or Lucille doing a good job pretending to be me, all he has to do is hand us a violin XD

Thats one of the recent amusing DID stories. Oh also once I checked my phone to see someone searched up “British Cream” and was very confused why that was there and why someone was looking up British Cream.

And one of the things that is talked about around the system that I’ve heard is apparently when Ray came out of a multi-year dormancy (having not formally met pretty much anyone in the system), one of his first interactions in the inner world with Lucille was going into his library and pulling a chair from underneath him. Cause Ray can be extra like that I guess.

Speaking of Ray being extra, one time I went to bed with two braids (I do it since my hair is hell and will destroy me if I sleep with it unbraided) and woke up with one really really bad braid and half of my hair loose. I was very confused and left a note asking who the heck woke up to unbraid my hair, and then do it again with one bad braid for the system. 

Apparently the next night I pissed Ray off and to get back at me, after I had planned to sleep and braided my hair into two even braids, he undid them and made one small braid and one really large one just to annoy me because he knew I’d probably be the one to wake up and that it would irritate me.

But yeah those are probably the few off the top of my head that are kinda amusing to tell XD (I’ve also randomly found myself in a hot bath tub when I swore I was doing homework thanks to Aderis, but thats a rather common short story)

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the ocean!!!

reading <333

the countryside

MUSIC!!!!

riding on trains

climbing

so hero got home from a long walk last night and was obviously pretty sweaty so he got in the shower. but he didnt want to wash our hair or get it wet cause its a pain so he put it up in a high ponytail.

Anyway (this is all from ear that our friends told us and also an unlisted video we found on our youtube and some search history results)

We come back and we’re told that Jackie sat down and shotgunned nearly 20 sodas and almost tried to do with with like. a beef pasta can? All in the shower, and at some point he painted his face like the joker with our makeup on a video call with our friends and eventually everyone kind of had to go do other stuff so he was like ok what can i do now. So. Naturally. His response was to bleach and dye our hair. Why? I don’t know. it looked fine. whyd he do that. 

But he went outside with our hair stuff and bleached our hair and halfway through it our brain registered that we were either manic or in a psychotic episode or something and . 

this guy. bleach in his hair. in PAJAMAS. WALKED. ALL THE WAY TO THE PARK. AND STAYED THERE. FOR TWO HOURS. Albeit he had our Phone and was texting our friends the whole time. But this isnt the worst part.

He made a fucking. summoning circle or some shit out of mud at the park and then walked into the forest and tried to take a nap and its only because our partner called us that he actually went home because he got Completely lost with low battery on a phone that cant run google maps.