Jan 10, 2023
me, a fool who is subject to a bit of russian roulette every time i drink coffee as to whether or not a wave of anxiety will upend me and fuck me up for a bit, odds worsened if I'm already stressed: well, looks like itll be a late night trying to get something done for work before morning, im a litle tired, lets have some insta coffee! this will not backfire.
me, still a fool, 30 minutes later, vibrating slightly: hmmmmmmmmmmm i cant believe this may have backfired.
#once i recover a little im sure ill be able to work and have the thing done by morning! this is fine and good. im very smart 😎#i used to blame this more om the coffee but after a good chunk of non anxiety jitter inducing coffees i think this MIGHT be correlated to#pre-existing stress#anyway once ive successfully vibrated out this panic wave ill be able to get work done B)#sysmelodrama#and then ill sleep before 4! probably. most likely. 🥳#update its 4:54#but the big item is. roughly done. we're setting 5 alarms for 9 AM and its gonna be SO great#only an hour off!#now ideally the coffee cooperates....#update: woke up on time. powered through the workday. finished everything. now going to pass out for a short period of time. go me.
