tfw. you think it would be cool to be willogenic (basically making alters in ur head through ur own will) but you dont wanna do all that work 🥹🥹
i used to be a mixed origin sys but it kinda went away due to my meds taking away the need for them (theyre still in there, just kinda hibernating) now though i just kinda have a weird thing where i have kinda like 3 distinct personalities that do often mix with eachother but can also stand alone. theyre kinda modelled off fan, paintbrush, and lightbulb, fan just being a bit weird bc hes kind of a pretentious asshole and carries most of my "less desirable" traits while still retaining some of his source identity. think like if fan and silver spoon had a stupid baby ❤️🩹❤️🩹 which makes sense bc i like silver spoon a lot too, and ship him with fan and paintbrush kind of.
theyre not exactly sentient.... i think.....???? i just kind of act like each of them and it switches fairly often. sometimes i just wake up like one of them, like im in their "mindset" in a way and other times if smth happens to me and i change emotionally than one of them can take over. sometimes its rlly intense, i can just be talking or smth as lightbulb and then i get reminded of smth that sets me off and then suddenly fan is here going on a rant 💔 and i have to be like "SORRY just got a bit out of control" and reel him back in 🥲
(btw yes i do 100000% take all accountability for outbursts and stuff!!! i am still at least partially in control i just kinda let go of the reins sometimes yk. or like the switching just makes me lose grip for a second. again this isnt very much of an issue, just kind of an odd quirk imo lol.)
idk whst this is help. it isnt rlly an issue or anything its just interesting and im not sure how to classify this. i dont rlly feel like a system anymore, maybe just plural or smth else but idfk.
