#symuses

ch227 reveals something that made me 99% sure that demon in modri’s memories is not sebastian.

..what?

“my impulsive comrade”, “our weakness”… these demons are not working alone.

but a comrade. an impulsive one, at that. what an interesting word choice.

if other demons have this kind of view to each other then why does sebastian say he’s never had a friend if he’s had comrades and family?

also why would another demon impulsively tell humans how to make weapons that can destroy them? the kanji that make up this word for “impulsive” (which more accurately means “on a whim” or “eccentric”) is interesting “drunk, poisoned, spellbound” and “lunatic, crazy, confused” because there’s almost this connotation that this demon is looking down on that one for being strange enough to give a “weakness” of the demons to humans (a weakness he doesn’t seem to believe they have, that’s also odd).

but this isn’t sebastian because he doesn’t seem to have any camaraderie with other demons. hell, he doesn’t seem to even know this group of exorcists existed because in the first volume he talks about human weaponry and this is what he says

if we take the clothing in the flashback as guidance, modri was alive presumably a 100 years ago.

anyway did nobody else pick up on the other demon being mentioned by modri’s demon that seemed to have helped humans build anti demon weaponry? why did that demon do that? did he want to help people out of curiosity? was it part of a contract where a human asked for a demon’s weakness? or was he just sick of living (did he want to die… for some reason)? wait, can demons starve? can death scythes actually finish them off? also what of that weapon layla had that the death scythe couldn’t cut? are they related to the demon-hunting weapons these exorcists have? modri uses knives too and UT knows of the exorcists (and probably their weapons) since he finds modri after one of those battles (while wearing a suit and having a fresh scar)…

but hold on, if his scar is fresh, is this revival around the time he destroyed reaper HQ (1819~)? why did he revive an exorcist when sebastian and ciel weren’t even contracted yet? fucking claudia wasn’t even born yet (she was born in 1830), let alone vincent or the ciels. what the fuck is even going on

ciel becomes corrupted and self-righteous due to the endless power he can wield with sebastian under his control (negative) but sebastian is a positive force who prompts him to be more social, kind and understanding towards others. sebastian through the manga tries to teach ciel lessons about life as if he is preparing the boy for his absence which he is not obligated to do, it obviously has a romantic connotation but some interpret it to be 'parental'. there is also no reason for him to do this as he wishes to consume ciel's soul so he doesn't have any reason to teach him things about how to live his life; it is also not the typical devilish corruption we expect from him.

when it comes to sebastian himself, he is weaker now than he was at the start (negative), he's hungry, stressed, overthinks his battles (lost his noukin-ness and has to ask ciel for advice more) and hesitates more but he is also more empathetic (suffered loss due to agni's death) which is a positive because he is able to enjoy his life more (the main reason the "butler game" is so fascinating to him). sebastian already had certain 'aesthetics' and 'convictions' which is pointed out to be odd but he has gone beyond basic humanity and i believe it is ciel's influence affecting him. there's a noticeable theme of class, nobility and hierarchy in manga kuro, which im writing about and sebastian oddly subscribes to a sense of moralisation particularly towards people who take advantage of their power OR only care about the upper class.

i like to imagine ciel saw his two closest people in her and that's why he was fond enough to be her friend, going as far as to give her such genuine advice at the end of the arc and offering her a choice, telling her to not trust anyone including himself

i think there's something about it that just speaks to me when it comes to sebaciel's relationship:

sebastian is cursed (so is ciel) but it is sebastian who must follow what ciel commands. he is chained to ciel's whims, a prisoner to his desires (in order to be fed)... yes he can break the contract but as we know, it won't be a fulfilling meal.

this is why his lines when he lets lizzy escape and go back to the sphere music hall are so important, he tells ciel that not everyone can be like him

his word choice is interesting: a prisoner; chained up; a dog... who is the dog between them in this dynamic?

but it also means something else:

and i think that's neat, he's a devil so his love being dishonest and a snare/trap is very fitting. maybe it's a bit dark to say this but i doubt he can truly "love" within the confines of the contract; after all, he is a prisoner, a 'dog' and the contract may shackle his physical form but not his heart

more importantly, he's not a human, his scope of emotions are likely less than the average human's

if what i think is true then this gives kuro a chance for an extremely angsty ending especially if we think about the (non-canon) red valentine seiyuu event in 2010 where the VAs did a little possible end for kuro (with sebastian saying 'im a lonely demon')...

in that body, the only body that houses memories of o!ciel, all of the different sides of him, in the remains of that house, making that birthday cake he never got to eat. if he consumes o!ciel, he will likely forget him once he stops manifesting with this body. if my theory is true, his memories will fade with this body as the record will hit an 'end' and he wont have access to his memories of o!ciel unless he remains in this body and even if he stays in his "sebastian" body when he makes a new contract, his memories of o!ciel will become 'episodic' and fade away with only faint flashes remaining. will he tolerate the hunger and stay sebastian, in order to not forget him, for as long as possible until his next contract, trying to keep o!ciel's memory alive or will he waste away from starvation, clinging onto the remnants of his past?