for @sxrgeant
The cameras flashing in his face was too much. It sent him back to his unveiling as Cap, his hearing, and the way everyone looked at him on that day in Riga. Pressure was building up in his head, his ears ringing, and nausea threatening to make itself known. He bolts back through where they had all came from to get away from the cameras and race for a nearby alley. Just barely making it in time to lose his stomach contents all over the ground, bracing himself against the building walls as he retched. He didn't want all this. He can't do this again. He wants to go home. He wants this all to stop. Everything was too loud and overwhelming and the ringing won't stop. John collapsed to his hands and knees trying to breath, trying to center himself but failing. Weak. Useless. Pathetic. That's all he was and is.
