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My powers are widely beyond your understanding

Seelies always pick the winning side

I'm working on the fourth and final chapter between other projects since the anniversary is coming up on the 27th. Good lord how did the time fly by so fast?

I don't think I'll be done by then specifically because I've felt a little stuck on the ending. I'm torn between three different options, and every one has some interesting implications and consequences.

From the day I set out to make this a series I knew there were only three potential endings. It's a self aware au with romance after all.

Xavier comes to the 'real world' to be with the reader

Xavier brings the reader to his world

Nothing changes and the two stay in separate worlds

I mentioned this several months back, but I want this fic to have weight. I want Xavier to have to really think about this. Of course, on the one hand, it's Xavier. He'll jump at the opportunity to be reunited with the one he loves so it's a no brainer that it would be one of the first two.

However.

If Xavier joins the reader in the real world, that also means he is officially killing the Traceback II mission and declaring it a failure, betraying all the Backtrackers, Philos, and his Queen.

If Xavier brings you as the reader to his world, he is putting you in ACTIVE danger by introducing you to a world with literal monsters and a dying planet while simultaneously ripping you away from everything you've ever known.

"But MB!" You might be thinking, "I would gladly make the choice for him! I'd go to him/bring him here"

Which is totally fair! You as an individual would have the agency to make that decision.

But I'm putting the decision in Xavier's hands for that exact reason. In theory I could write two separate endings and let you pick the one you'd prefer, but that just doesn't quite sit right with me.

I was discussing this conundrum with my friend over dinner and they rightfully pointed out I could make this struggle evident with Xavier in the story itself. Of course Xavier can't fathom leaving you behind again, he still sees you as another part of MC, after all. But no matter what he decides he is betraying someone in the end.

No matter what way he twists it, there is no perfect happy ending.

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sorry for not doing substantial replies or any replies to an y thin g

something about the combination of popcorn, junior mints, cherry pepsi and ice cream cake didn't sit too well with me so i've been sort of resting/napping on-off while mindlessly reblogging things and doing revision