#swlf harm

Tw: mention of self harm and suicidal thoughts

Man I feel done. Like ik like life is hard and we can do it qnd shit but I feel like breakdown is approaching. It's been almost 2.5 months since im self harm free and now all I can think about is scratching the fuck out of my arm . Screaming my head off when someone approaches me. Slamming the door when someone misgenders me. Cutting myself cuz I can't cut my body off while feeling dysorphic. I feel like floating where I'm supposed to run uk. I feel like a little shit , where everything would be better if my existence was never there. Just no pressure to people around me. No more freeloading on me. No more financial expenses or no more worries. Just gone . Vanish ..

Advice : drinking to cloud yourself does no shit. It bites u in ur ass when u gulp it down too neat. Add my bill of burnt throat for reassurance.

So, I guess some of you have or had some problems with self harm or are trying to quit like me.

So here's a trick I created today.

All you need is a lipstick, better if it's a very cheap one.

So, if you're having an awful day and you just wish to start doing it, instead of the blade take the lipstick and start drawing lines on your arm. Then wash your arm once you feel better.

In this way you can transfer your pain on your body without hurting it.

I hope this little post helped you and remember: you're not alone, you're not worthless and you don't deserve to cut yourself.

You're probably thinking "Come on, she doesn't even know how I feel". I know how you feel. I was a cutter myself and I still have some times when I wish to start again.

You're an amazing person, full of talent, useful and beautiful. You're not weak at all, you just need your time to realize it.

I believe in you! 😄