#sweet rambles

I have a boyfriend. He is absolutely one of my favorite people in the world. We've been dating for years and have known each other since we were kids. We were really just kinda there for each other growing up. He moved away for school, didn't really hear much and then showed back up 3 years later. Quickly became close again. Hanging out, movies and video games together. All the silly stuff. And it finally hit me one night coming home from his house.

I had fallen for this guy. And promptly went "Oh hell" because I didn't know how to approach this. I didn't know what to do. And I was terrified to lose my friend.

Then Covid happened. Stay-at-home order happened. And we didn't see each other for 4 months. Texting every day, calling when we could. 4 months of my head screaming at me like it was that scene in Hercules with the Muses singing to Meg. Because I was so scared, and people were sick and I was terrified something would happen to him. So finally, I broke. Went into this zen zone of "I'll tell him. I'm going crazy and it has to stop. For my own sake."

And I did.

Only for this joker..... TO TELL ME HE HAD BEEN TRYING TO MAKE THE MOVES ON ME FOR MONTHS AND I HAD NO IDEA. Then he kissed me several times and we've been together since. ( I know, I sound like a cheesy fanfic or something. I know there's gotta be one out there. I have no excuse.)

But dang, either I'm ridiculously blind or him making the moves was some form of Morse code. Idk.

God I love him.

Especially other a longer period if time, I don't think I could portray someone really over-the-top evil, even if these characters are suuuuper fun. But even with Eli I stoped doing ridiculously evil things, because after a year of playing that I just couldn't keep up anymore. To be fair, I do think Eli has currently other concerns...but still.

She will never stop being evil, I just went in a different direction story wise because somewhow that came more naturally to me.

And yes, even Asklepios used to be more of an asshole and he definitely toned down but he was also never meant go be a villain character.

As for my girl Eli, at least wer can still all agree that she is a shitty person who has done shitty things, not just backstory wise but also in the realm of the mission and you know what? Good enough.

I like to see good things and make them sweet (kinda wanna live up to the name if I can, you know?) This is meant to be a safe place for alot of people to enjoy their interests and come together with others.

Now that being said.....

Yeah.....let me explain something.

For context, about 4 years ago, my gallbladder decided that I was to be put on probation. Gave me horrible bouts of pain lasting for 5 hours at least during the night. Not pretty. Finally got to see a doctor who asked me one specific question and she immediately figured it out.

Fun fact; Gallbladder attacks often include unexplainable burping. Did you know that? Cause I didn't!

Gave me a diet to stick to and here we are today! (Yes, I know it's bad I still have it. Healthcare in America. Enough said)

Anywho, the result of this? I lost weight! 40 pounds gone. And... also gained a weird phobia of grease. Ever had a bag of microwave popcorn give you dread? It's an interesting time.

Are there any vampires in entertainment media that aren't kinda douchebags? (Kids movies don't count. I ain't talking about Mavis Dracula or Rudolph from The Little Vampire)

Twilight- Edward's a stalker and has zero personality basically.

Interview with a Vampire (as much as I love the show and movie) - Horrible people. Toxic as fuck. But I do love them.

True Blood/ Vampire Diaries - I care nothing about these shows but my friend does and she's told me the basics. So much drama.

Buffy - Angel had his head up his ass. She should have got with Spike. At least he was funny.

What We Do in the Shadows - Again, love the characters. A very funny show. But also a bit toxic.