#surfjohn stevens

I have never felt so happy in my entire life. 

I'm having a really hard time processing all of the things I'm feeling right now.

Tonight, I saw my hero, Sufjan Stevens, live.

I was on the far right of the stage in the very front. One of the first songs he played was Silver & Gold. I got lost in the guitar/piano riff and enveloped in the lyrics. Things were making sense and a few single tears ran down my face. There were heaps of sing-a-long Christmas songs in the middle of the set, and I was filled with joy by the unity of every person in that room. Somewhere in there, he played Futile Devices. I closed my eyes and I felt like I was laying in my bed at home listening to the song. The guitar riff was floating in through one ear, wrapping itself around my brain; followed shortly by his soothing voice. The words all started to make sense to me and they felt so relavent that it scared me. But I was so happy. At the end, he played Christmas Unicorn. They did a mash up with Love Will Tear Us Apart by Joy Division. I had never seen so much confetti. Everyone was so happy and the feeling was contagious. I just wanted to dance. Then came the encore.

When he came back out, he played Chicago. It wasn't like the acoustic version but it wasn't like the album version. I closed my eyes and jumped into my own little world surrounded by the sound. The first time he sang "I've made a lot of mistakes, in my mind, in my mind", I lost it. Since I was in the front I was able to put my head onto the edge of the stage and just cry. I was whimpering and my eyes were just pouring. It wasn't all a sad feeling; there was some happy, too. And too many feelings that don't have names. After that, they started Come On Feel the Illinoise. The contrast in the music and how everything was put together was perfect. I was shaking and crying because what I was feeling was so great. Even though I had heard the song before, I forgot the words because I was too shaken up. I just cried. Nico and I even hugged it out. We just stood there and hugged. We both had so many different feelings going on. I was so happy. I cried throughout every song in the encore (which lasted about half an hour) and I was still crying for fifteen minutes after the concert.

Just going to leave this one here....