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Type: Drabble

Fandom and Characters: Supergirl's Kara and Lena. Krypton's Nyssa of the House of Vex.

Summary: At one of the hardest moments in her life, Kara can't do anything but thinking about her grandmother.

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If Kara had to be totally honest, she didn't remember the last time she had thought about her. Sometimes days went by without her thinking about her first family. She had succeeded, building a life on Earth, finding new people to love, moving on. And generally everything was fine until something happened. A smell, a taste, the color of certain stars, or sometimes something as simple as the sound of a laugh. And then Kara's mind made a quick trip to those first years of her existence in her previous life, when worries didn't exist and her life was a flowing river of moments full of love with the first person she had loved and lost. Her grandmother Nyssa.

"I'm a Luthor and I know very well what lies are," said Lena in front of her. "But I expected something better from you. I guess I expected too much."

Years later Kara would think of her as fortunate, dying peacefully of old age instead of the painful and violent death suffered by the rest of the planet. But when it happened she was eleven years old and so deadly sad that her aunt Astra thought she was going to get sick. She remembered seeing her grandmother's body, previously warm and welcoming, but rough and discolored in that pod, like old clothes. She had cried the last time she saw her. Not of sadness, but of confusion. Because that corpse without any warm, which her father and uncle Jor-El sent to meet Rao, did not resemble her grandmother Nyssa at all.

"All these years thinking you cared," said Lena, her expressionless face in front of her. "I blindly trusted you. You were my hero. And you used me and lied to me just like my mother would."

It had been Nyssa who had taught her to walk straight, with the pride and confidence of the ancients El who had ruled Krypton in the Age of Dawn. It was Nyssa who taught her to be brave, never to be overcome by fear. Because there was nothing in the darkness that could be stronger than her determination. There was no catastrophe, tragedy or silence that could kill hope.

"Three years, Kara. You really didn't find a time to tell me in three years? How could you do this to me?"

It had also been Nyssa who had taught her what true love was, when she was six years old and slept at her home at night, because her parents and Aunt Astra worked all night. Her grandmother had taught her what was the purest form of love. It was in the way she lay beside her at night, circling her with her thin arm. It was in Kara resting her little head in her neck, enjoying her heat, always asking for the same story before bedtime. The one about Erok-El and the first great Kryptonian empire. And Nyssa of the House of Vex always told it in the same way, with the same words, without matter how many times Kara asked. And Kara knew that this was the kind of love capable of surviving catastrophes, time, even death, because as a seed it had germinated in her heart by shaping it into what it had always been and always would be.

"How could you lie to me?"

'I love you, my little Kara. You are my whole heart. Never forget that you are beautiful, strong and brave.'

"How could you betray me?"

"Have you finished?" said Kara at the end, opening her mouth to interrupt the other woman. "I'm very sorry that you feel so hurt, Lena. I'm sorry for what happened. However, it was my secret. My privacy. And you have no right to turn it into another excuse to continue putting yourself in a victim role that doesn't belong to you."

"I want you to suffer as much as I did."

Kara couldn't help letting out a sad, short laugh. "If you had suffered as much as I did, you would have died years ago." She shook her head. "There's nothing, nothing you can do to break me, Lena. You can't make me suffer. No one can, not anymore. I'm Kara Zor-El of Krypton and there's nothing you can do to hurt me," she said, slowly taking off her glasses. "Neither you nor anyone." Kara turned to the window, eager to leave. There was nothing more to say. "I hope you find the peace and love you've been looking for all your life. But after all this time, I think you won't be able to find it in me."

"It's you who did this," she said furiously. "You used me."

'Never forget that you are an El, and that greatness runs through your blood.'

Chapters: 1/? Fandom: Supergirl (TV 2015) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Alex Danvers & Kara Danvers, Samantha "Sam" Arias & Lena Luthor Characters: Alex Danvers, Kara Danvers, Lena Luthor, Samantha "Sam" Arias Additional Tags: First Meetings, First Dates, pride month Summary: