#sup-zee

where do i want to live?

i want to live in new zealand to escape all worldly matters and just bond with nature for some months. to breathe the ocean, smell the mountains and have the wind gush through my hair; i will learn how to be grateful to Allah even more than i’ve ever been, meet someone incredibly wondrous and accepting and caring. i will have peace in my heart and start loving more.

and when i become brave, i want to live in japan. just a year, or two, to get more organised and have more control over myself. i will have treats such as practical items at store, feel as if i am in a haruki murakami novel and begin my adulthood. i will become rash, and insightful.

then i’ll travel to all the cities i’ve dreamed of, to all the universe of the people whom i love and whom i miss. i will create memories, i will create stories and trails of my existence. people will appreciate my presence and i will grow to become someone who’s beautiful and kind and intelligent.

i wish to

photograph the details that make you with film cameras; have long&honest conversations between the drizzle of rain for when the world hurts too much; sip the warmth of matcha lattes and; feel the company of you.

Everyone’s moved on.

And I’m still here, still waiting to escape this crumbling reality that has given to me.

i wonder if i’ll start travelling to new places and live more youthfully

and if my grades would begin fulfilling my targeted universities

and if i’ll be a much more organised and self-controlled person.

if Allah wills 🙃

aries: passionate verging on obsessive. defensive of both themselves and the people they love. few layers; what you see is more or less what you get. good-hearted, intelligent. always up for a challenge, but becomes stressed out very easily and handles stress very poorly. even when they’re tired, they somehow seem so alert and two steps ahead of you. responsible. they prefer to lead and lead very well. interesting, competitive, loyal. although they like to be correct and love to prove people wrong, more than anything they just want someone to listen and expand on their point, not disagree with it. romantic but they like to pretend that they aren’t. they seek instant gratification and hate doing things that they’re not naturally great at (but they’re naturally great at a lot). can be very self-absorbed, but it’s not conscious. so loving and so lovely. the yang to my yin, the storm to my calm. a friend who completes me.