i'm here if you ever feel like you want to talk to someone, okay? but i totally get it if you don't feel like talking too. i hope things get easier for you soon.
tbh, I don’t even know what to say. There is too much going on. Mostly in my head. Losing faith is one of the saddest, the emptiest feelings ever. Also my body is weak and I know that it’s my fault too. I am 160 cm and now I weight 46,8 kg. I try to eat but at the same time.. I don’t. and I miss my mom. I mean I see her, everyday but it’s me who is different now. And I can’t talk to her as I used to and I see how worried and angry at the same time she is because she doesn’t know what to do with me. And I am scared to sleep, that’s the weirdest thing. Last night was terrible. I just… didn’t want to sleep because darkness or not dreaming scares me. Like I mentioned… It is really really bad. But I think I should firstly focus on my eating disorder. Maybe if I start eating normally I will also feel better. I want to eat pudding or get drunk now (even though it’s pretty late) :)
