#suidical

…the thing I wanted more than anything happened and yet I’m still alive. I got into a car accident but because I guess somewhere out there wanted me still alive kept me alive. Why? I’m not worth anything! People don’t want to talk to me, don’t like me, don’t want anything to do with me. So why am I still alive?!?!

I WANTED TO DIE IN THAT ACCIDENT SO MUCH BUT IM NOT! WHY AM I STILL HERE!! I have nothing to show for my life anymore.

I mean..not like people care and the one person I’ve been wanting to talk to is ignoring me STILL and posting everywhere that they need people to talk to yet I’m right here. But it’s fine. I should’ve died. I. Should’ve. Died.

Maybe I’ll die in my sleep so I don’t have to deal with anything anymore. No one can catch up on me, no one can act like they loved me when they don’t. I’ll never be one people care about. I’ve been bottling up my crying till now so no one can hear me. I’m sorry to everyone that “loved” or “liked” me. I’m worthless and I hate this!