#suicider

Ok, "friend" is way too neutral word for our relationships.

We loved each other a LOT. He hurt me continuously (by accident, he didn't guess I'm so fragile. So autistic - it was not such an everyday termin then as today and I did not know myself that I can say "autistic" about myself). I hurt him terribly when I killed myself. After I came back to life - survived, he was as gentle, gave me so much attention and care. as you can imagine. And year later he said he does not want to communicate with me every day, every week or even every month. Because he was hurt and badly hurt when I started to grow some spine. "She is angry at everyone, probably angry at herself, better stop regular communication now or I can't communicate with her at all ever," he decided and then I was hurt. Badly. He even did not invite me to his wedding! Those terrible terrible days ...

But somehow we got over even those pains. He still takes care of me every way possible when we meet. Stops midpharse and explains that he did not mean this seriously, it was a joke. When I have (I sometimes have - no-dopamine for days and weeks) major depressive episode, I write him and he comes, brings me everything I ask for and is sweetness himself. And when back home, he sends me messages every day until he is sure I'm out of it. When we are on some event he spends all of it next to me and asks me personal questions and is full of tenderness (and jokes and his quick wit runs as fast as always.)

SO. I met this friend yesterday. He was tender and sweet and quickwit and I was as flattered as always. But for the first time I understood HOW weird is he himself. Our weirds are different but he is not - even slightly - less weird than I am.

Funny and joyful feeling. Yes, I was glad to meet him. But also I realized our problems are and were not because I am too weird to him and he gently tries to take care of me from afar. Our problems exist cause we are both extremely weird and our weird match in some things and in some other things does not match at all.

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