Do you think after a date and you hold Shinso's hand, he goes home and has to spend a loooooong ass time deliberating if its disrespectful to jerk off with the hand he used to hold yours?
HOW the hell did you know i was missing Shinso so badly !!!!!!!!!
The answer is yes, YES, yes yes yes!!! He already thinks its disrespectful to be thinking of u in .. lewd... scenarios when he's beating it (not that that stops him, of course) ... ofc it gets so much worse when you're in the sweet, hand holding stage before you actually start touching consistently.
i honestly think you have to like. explicitly give him permission for him to actually get over it. i absolutely know you have a moment where you're like. "you can touch my boob. if you like." and you think it's sorta silly u have to actually tell him that. but he's genuinely sweating bullets like he's abt to wrong u ajksdfak.
and frankly, i mean, he still feels bad when you're married and hold his hand on a daily basis LOOOL . he tells himself he's not allowed to sexualize his spouse unless youre in the room with him (and naked).
