#suffering alone

“I’m walking through fire with a smile, but don’t mistake my strength for peace...I’m just used to burning quietly.”

There’s like. Something there in what Gwen says about how being spiderman is fundamentally isolating because no one knows who you truly are, and you’re so used to working alone and how every spiderman seemed to carry that baggage w them into the multiverse. The way Jess and Miguel are both really bad at mentoring, at facilitating an environment that would help their youngest members grow, despite both being extremely competent at their jobs. The way Gwen’s afraid to let down Jess and confide in her and in so doing, makes things worse. The way Miguel starts having a breakdown in his nasty rant at Miles and starts screaming about how he’s the one who’s been keeping it all together. How that’s fundamentally untrue but he undeniably feels that way, and it’s taken a huge toll on both him and the people he’s supposed to lead. The way the spider society doesn’t so much enact teamwork as it does just throwing lots of talented individuals at one problem (which is why they can’t catch Miles, they don’t work together), how different we see the teamwork to be when Miles leads in his group. Like they all feel so fundamentally isolated despite having literally the most in common that they could with another person.

The bright side to be being in love is that I'm a sucker for some good ol' unrequited love so if this doesn't work out I can experience the angst for the low low price of suffering alone