#subjugator

I was a teen when I discovered I have fibromyalgia and Ehlers-Danlos syndrome. since then iv been on a cocktail of pain meds and had issues of substance abuse.

I wasn't even safe in the mental health department becuase I got the 3 for 1 special on developmental disorders. (ASD, ADHD, OCD) For whichever ailment gave me minor hallucinations is still up in the air but bottom line. I got em. 😐😐😐

With all that information, seeing a young stoner with hallucinations and delusion I was sold. I know he flawed you don't have to tell me twice!!! I just think he's neat.

I'm nonfunctional without my meds. I get scared thinking about world disasters makeing my meds unobtainable and I just stop working. I don't know if I'd die or go insane first. I think back to when gamzee just ran out of sopar and bum myself out even more 😭.

I tried a new method of drawing objects. I would work on a seprate canvas and practice drawings of pie tins, faygo bottles, and trash. Once I got bored I did a more detailed render with a reference next to me. Then I would import it in and shrink it to fit. They got better incorporated with lighting later. Idk how to feel about it becuase they look to real?