#study goal

"Sorry I can't right now. I'm studying."

write notes for 4.2 , 4.3 and 4.4

finish reading ch4 (23 pages)

finish writing notes for ch4

read ch5 (30 pages)

Limits and Derivatives

Continuity and Differentiability

Integrals

Differential Equations

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In high school, I was considered a pretty average student. I knew that I was more than that, but I prioritized my extra curricular activities to have a fun experience in high school. I also thought being “well rounded” would make up for the fact that I had A’s and B’s and once a C. When it came to my Senior year, I realized I screwed myself over by inflating my ego and getting rejected by my dream school.

I was always put into advanced classes in grade school, but this is not something that I want to brag about. It actually hurt me because it inflated my confidence giving me a false sense of self. From this point as a student, I thought I was given the natural ability of intelligence and I learned to never study for tests and exam (except for science which was my achilles). My grades in grade school were A’s and A-’s.

This habit carried on in high school. I had an ego in which I was intelligent enough to not put in any work. The people around me often didn’t seem as bright as me, so I settled to stay in classes in which I felt comfortable being at the top.

I didn’t realize that making myself uncomfortable by putting my self in more difficult classes would have made me smarter. I didn’t want to compete with the smartest students in the class because I didn’t want to feel dumb.

I never studied for my AP Bio or AP US History exams. I loved History so I felt that there was no need for me to prepare because I knew I would get a good grade. I thought my “natural intelligence” would help me pass. I hated AP Biology because I just didn’t get Biology. I never asked for help because I thought I was too smart for help.

I ended up getting 2′s on both of the tests. Because of my inflated sense of intelligence, I never studied for the ACT. I did extremely poorly, and it was too late to fix by the time I applied for college. 

It was time for me to change as a person. I needed to stop pretending to be “naturally gifted” and actually work towards my goals. Upon going to Indiana University, I realized that I needed to make the best of my experience there. I met people that were a thousand times smarter than me and my former colleagues in high school.

I lost my inflated sense of intelligence. I started studying for my quizzes, tests, and exams. I started engaging with my professors when I needed help. While I never really needed actual help, I ended up connecting with a lot of professors. They would give me a lot of inside information on how to succeed just because I was being vulnerable and asking for help. The classes in which I performed the worst were a product of me not going to office hours or asking for help. 

Day 56/100 days of productivity | 6.12.19