Collapse.
Particles of immense weight strike the beach in thunder,
Break asunder in great clumps of sand and sea swept upward like
Giants' fists come unhinged, hurled at the black pillars in the sky until
A singed, sopping gull falls from flight—but I let it pass by as
salt water fills my mouth
And dries this heart out
Burns my wounds as I fall into the trenches
And my mind closes at the mention
of a name spoken none too soon.
Eyes trace the descent of one red balloon
And dusk falls
Night calls
Stalls
And...
Underwater,
I envision myself old
A spring morning but it's still cold outside
Oak pollen covers my plastic chair
I wish you'd been there so
We could glance at the pots along the fence
And I'm all grins:
Seven small seeds turned up from the damp soil
By the storms last night.
Tender shoots crawl out from scaly husks
Strike out bright this new path of life
From a past of death and dying—
Just to a see sun they've never seen;
Just to be a new thing they've never been.
Compelled?
Drawn out from crusty hard shells
From cold, dirt and worms, this seedy knell
Was the dirt of life:
Power to ascend with the winged kite
Hope to see when before there had been no sight
Love of a Sun which compelled seven seeds
To green amidst the grey
To fight against themselves, and say
I will live,
Though I don't know yet what that means
I will live,
I have hope to feast and not just to glean
I will live,
Though right now I have no feet to take a step, no lungs to take a breath
I will live,
In the warmth of a summer sun
To die to death
To see what I've never seen
To be what I've never been.
Life?
I awake; the light is blinding.
The ground beneath my back is groaning to break its binding
This universe resigning joyfully its post
To give way; rise like songs poured out by the finches
Like flowers bravely from the trenches
The world, embodied and emboldened, stands to attention
To the disintegration of tensions in corporate hymn
Even as a flood from the heavens, new Jerusalem
Sets to rights:
The salt water in my heart turns clear
And wounds I had disappear with the fear;
I died tonight
But I think that's alright because
I will live,
To see the Son who bore the tree
I will live,
To revel and share in all His glory
I will live,
Though I don't know what that means–
I will burst the seems of my feeble shell, this life on a dirty knell,
And reach up to the Son.
"I am a student of DTS, an aspiring writer and a reserved, but sometimes outspoken, critic of life and culture who God mercifully decided to make into something much better than a depressed intellectual. This piece is something that was started at Eikon's collaboration event in January and its theme and some of its phrases are owed to the wonderful group with whom I was allowed to brainstorm. I originally performed this by simply reading it out to that evening's audience and since then have taken some time to edit it and (hopefully) improve it. It's about destruction and rebirth, depression and hope, defeat and victory, all tied together with the Christian hope and vision and a personal dream. The theme for the event was: Child, Where Are Your Dreams? New Heaven and New Earth."