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Grateful this week is almost over!

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I’m moving out tomorrow and I feel sooooo bad about it, I mean, actually not that bad, but like a crying baby who doesn’t wanna grow up and be never endingly expected to finally get their shit together and get a job, not rely on their parents and stuff. Also I talked a little with this guy from Tinder (I know, it’s lame, but I just wanted to boost up my self-esteem and stuff) and I thought that was the very first normal guy I’ve chatted with, but he was drunk then, like, very drunk, we talked on the phone and he barely contacted and he said that I could try talking to him in the morning when he’s sober, so I did, but he really is weird and can’t talk when he’s sober. Or I’m still weird and blocked against messaging people I don’t know in real life and it’s my fault. I don’t know anymore. I think if it’s ended right know (because he stopped responding me about an hour ago), I won’t regret it, because he wasn’t that interested in what I have to say, what am I like, like, as soon as he texted me, he started talking about his problems and that was our conversation basically. I think I have a thing with boys not giving me proper treatment *unfolds amrs*, so it’s better if it ended itself, because I would probably still be too pussy to stand for myself. Oh, and I’d forget about the insecurities point: when we talked I was after taking a shower and washing my hair, so I looked like a wet rat at best, I said ‘at best’ because I’m fat so I rather looked like me when I was born, which means VERY FUCKING BAD, with this flat hair and bare face, omg. If it was some mate of mine, I would not care, because I’d be like I won’t marry you and YOU wanted to talk to me, so you wanted to listen what I say and not admire my looks, so love me or leave me, deal with it. But it wasn’t my mate, it was quite a cute boy with very nice voice.  So he called me on messenger but the call would lag, so he called me on video and I picked up accidentally AND DIDN’T REALIZE THAT IF I COULD SEE HIM, HE COULD SEE ME TOO, AND I HAD MY PHONE DOWN SO HE COULD SEE ALL MY DOUBLE, TRIPLE, QUADRAPLE CHINS, so I set the phone higher, WHICH DID NO GOOD BECAUSE I NATURALLY LOOKED LIKE SHIT IN THIS WET HAIR ETC, and anyway I couldn’t hear him so I hung up and I was insecure about what he thought of me, that I looked really bad and he would run away, and later when we stopped talking on the phone and he said I was to text him in the morning, I was thinking about that I probably will be that girl you meet at the bar while you’re drunk as fuck and you’re blind so you think she’s pretty and you try hitting on her and when you’re sober, you realize she was ugly and you run away with embarassment.  But if it is that way, that would mean that he only liked my appearance and he only wanted to hear what I have to say about his issues because I look pretty in my photo on Tinder, so there’s nothing to be regreted or cry about. But I’m so stupid and I keep sticking to the wrong guys who don’t show proper interest in me. But that guy was funny, cute and had such a nice voice.....

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