năm 2021 này mình có vẻ đã trở nên sáng sủa hơn trước. mình không điên nữa, mình không có ý định muốn chết, không muốn giết ai, có thể quản lí cảm xúc tốt hơn. trộm vía. nhưng khi dịch tới, phải nghỉ ở nhà một thời gian, mình thấy mình đang dần trở lại như cũ. dần dần, mình lại muốn nằm đây hoài cho đến khi chết đi.

I thought that with time the desire to have you would dissipate and no, today I still have the impatient desire to write you, to selfishly answer my last days, of gifts, of anger, of crying, but I also thought of making myself mine, all of me, all free, all happy, that implies to stop crying to lost cases and opportunities with pain, I do not want a perfect person but I know that I want and it is not you, it is me, I am growing and I am going to grow taller than those little trees we used to lean on while we hugged each other having more desperation than warmth, the ephemeral but happy days when we ate pizza under those trees, the days that passed and were good in their day and today they are taking their toll on me with interest, do not misunderstand me, this does not mean I would not do it again, I would repeat it over and over again, because what is the use of living without feeling the sensation of living?

Karaoke track from: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZC1HWk5Ro2I My tumblr: birdofbreath.tumblr.com Lyrics: Terezi: All right. I give up. Meowbeast-girl, what's the deal with the pictures? Nepeta: You mean my shipping wall? TZ: Yep. So, like, how does this work? Nep: Myew? TZ: You randomly match us up, right? How? Do you roll a dice, flip a coin? Nep: Oh! It's not random! TZ: I don't get it. Nep: Let me explain it to you, then! TZ: All right. Make me your apprentice in shipping. This swabbie is ready to learn how to sail ships, Admiral Fuzzball! Nep: *giggle* [Nepeta] It doesn't matter what they look like It doesn't matter what they wear Where they're at on the hemospectrum We don't care [Choir] No we don't care! (TZ: Whoa, where'd they come from?) It doesn't matter which quadrant It doesn't even matter what�s real Diamonds, hearts, clubs, or spades They all have feels! [TZ and choir] They all have feels? Efurryone wants to be wanted Even if it's just purr-tend So that's why I make matches From bonds I see between my furiends! You got to dig a little deeper Read between the lines You got to dig a little deeper Then you'll start to see the signs! When you find the subtext And embrace the squee You'll see the love shine, the shipping! Just dig (dig) Just dig (dig) (TZ: Still not sure I'm getting it) Equius just needs a push To go black for Eridan Gamzee needs a stable influence And that's where Tav comes in! Aradia had a thing for Sol But was it diamond or heart? And Vriska thinks she wants control But Kanaya could change that part! You got to dig a little deeper Don't let the feels go You got to dig a little deeper Tell them your headcanon told you so! I don't know what you'll find But their love will grant you peace of mind Dig a little deeper and you'll know [Terezi] All right, I think I'm getting it. And what about Karkat? Is he on your wall? [Nepeta] Oh yes! He's the most impurrtant ship of all! Karkitty has a caring heart But he's scared to let it show He hides it all behind anger He needs someone to help him let go! He's got to dig a little deeper For him it'll be purrty tough He's got to dig a little deeper He just hasn�t been loved deep enough! If we dig deep inside ourselves We'll find the love we need We'll see the love shine, the shipping!! Go on, take out your chalk! Put your OTP on the wall! We'll see the love shine We'll see the love shine [Terezi] We�ll see the love shine! [Nepeta] That's shipping!! [Choir] Ahhh... Read more at http://tindeck.com/listen/igae#RJaKgwSesItCd1Zv.99