#strong like

I want you / I want YOU / I want your touch / I want to hear your voice whispering, caressing my ear / I want to feel the presence of your body inches away from mine / I want to fall into a light sleep with you tucked under me / I want to see your smile / I want to hear you laugh / I want you to teach me about new things, things I’ve never even thought of / I want to look at you in total amazement / I want to talk to you for hours about spirituality, life, whatever’s on your mind / I want to sit in silence and bask in your existence / I want my heart to swell with excitement when you’re with me / I want you to make me feel what love, real love, is again. 

I had this dream. Even after all my fears and all that's happened. After everything everyone has told me. I had this dream that we layed down I na twin sized bed, squishing in to fit. And you read one of your dorky books to me that I have never seen before. But we just did that. Random shit would happen and I'd keep ending up next to you night after night. It's so weird. But it's been one of the most calming dreams I've had in a long time.

I just want to express how happy I am right now. It's been a good minute since I've been truly happy. Everything isn't perfect or as good as it gets yet but I'm so in love with how the affection from one valuable person can mend so much. I have someone right now who found me when I was in a bad place. No one can ever see it but it's there no matter how much I smile. I can talk to him and tell him my thoughts without him judging me or thinking something's wrong with me. He's just determined to make me feel better - to be the reason why I feel better. It's nice. It's helping. It's also consuming. But I'm just soaking it in for now. He's the one thing that's constantly on my mind that I don't mind thinking about, lol.. Like I said, it's nice.

<3

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