Three years ago today my life was changed forever. I woke up to a world that wouldnāt stop spinning. My entire right side collapsed under me as I attempted to run to the toilet to vomit. It was terrifying. After a misdiagnosis by an incompetent doctor it was discovered over a week later that Iād had a cerebral infarctionāAKA mini strokeāthat started in the deformed area of my heart. The aftermath left me suicidal. I had to do weeks of therapy to walk properly again and even now my leg still gives out sometimes. I still struggle with the coordination in my right hand and rarely write or draw anymore. However, I found a new desire to just fucking live my life and live it how I want. Iāve become much more independent and mature. Iāve cut out the toxic, abusive people that have claimed to love me. Iāve found family in a community of outsiders. Iām learning to listen to my body and no longer see her as evil and sinful and a nuisance. Iām getting back in touch with the intuitive nature I had as a kid where I could dream the future and knew things before they happened, Iām doing it through something that was seen as so wicked growing up: witchcraft. As we enter a new decade I think back on these three years of struggle and then the 7 before them; how impossibly hard but how necessary they were. In the last ten years I graduated from high school, then college, I was in a traumatic relationship that nearly ruined me. I came out as bisexual. I came out again as polyamorous. I was in a relationship that I learned a fuck ton from. I went overseas for the first time, and to the Cannes Film Festival no less! I moved to Los Angeles. I rid myself of the faith that was forced upon me. I got diagnosed with Major Depression and PTSD & I started the healing process. I started a blog. I came out of the broom closet. I completely chopped off my hair. Damn, what havenāt I done?! Iām almost giddy with excitement to see what the next ten years will bring. š¤ ā¢ ā¢ ā¢ ā¢ #strokesurvivor #strokeawareness #strokeanniversary #heartwarrior #chdwarrior #1in100 #witchesofinstagram #writersofinstagram #lgbtq #ptsdawareness #depressionawareness #polyamorous #actor #model (at Los Angeles, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/B6vW9nxHCyG/?igshid=1m4zb90nk3tns
